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Joey9999
Looking for some insight into this as I have had repeated patterns of running into toxic friends & girlfriends.
My friends that I had in my childhood life and adult life were never real friends. The ones that seem super nice in the beginning, but then turn into assholes later on & become bullies, don't respect my boundaries, or try to make me feel bad for being who I am, then blame me for their behavior.
I thought I had a best friend named Rene. We were best friends for about 8 years from 2010 to 2018. I used to meet him in middle school in 2004 and became friends with me. Then when I made a little mistake about what I did to him in 2018, he and his friends treated me like I was a extremely bad person to him when I wasn't. Rene and his friends knew what my situation was. So I apologized and was remorseful to him, but he and his friends still don't care if I was remorseful or not. So they don't like me over a small mistake that I did to him. It's like I wasn't allowed to make even a tiny mistake to him or his friends. Rene used to abuse me by treating me like I was always stupid and he was always right when he actually wasn't always right. His friends knew about what Rene did to me in the past, but they didn't care. So basically, when I made mistakes to him even though they're small, they act like it's extremely bad and think that I should have no friends, but when he made giant mistakes to me, they act like it's perfectly okay. So I never had Rene or his friends as my friends at all, and it wrecked my confidence big time.
I also thought I had a friend named Thomas. We were friends in 2002. I thought he was a decent friend to me, but it turns out, he was never a real friend to me. He used to invite me to his place when we were in high school. After we graduated from high school, he abandoned me like I did something wrong to him, but I never did anything wrong to him. I try talking to him on the phone to keep the friendship from going down, but it didn't work. Then in 2014, when he finally invited me to his house again to hangout. You won't believe what he did to me. He was showing me a video of a random person throwing puppies in the river, so he abused me and thought I was going to do something really bad like that video he showed me and then threat to kill me if I ever did that. So that's when I thought Thomas was nothing but a toxic and a creep person.
I also thought I had a friend named Preston. We were friends for about 3 months in 2010. We used to talk on the phone. And then when I came to his house, his mom really liked me. His mom thought I was a really nice person. After that, Preston said that I became his bestfriend, but I found the truth that we weren't actually bestfriends. He abandoned me right after I was at his house. I don't understand why he did that to me. I did nothing wrong to lose the friendship. So I tried calling him to keep the friendship going, but he never answered his phone anymore. So basically, he didn't really like me.
I also thought I had a friend named Joel. Me and Rene were friends with Joel from 2012 to 2013. Me and Rene played with Joel's kids everytime we came over. Joel's kids said they liked me and Rene. The sad part about me was that Joel offered Rene to babysit his kids, but not me. I'm a great babysitter too, but Joel and his wife only treated me like a kid. I don't understand why they did that to me. Joel and his wife said I was a good person, but they never really trusted me, they only trusted my ex bestfriend Rene. That made me really sad.
I also thought I had a friend named Oscar. Me and him met eachother in tennis class at college in 2014. We were friends, but he never really trusted me at all. I got to see the truth about Oscar not trusting me when he gave me his phone to see that I texted him to see if he wanted to go to the fair with me to go on the rides, and when I saw his contacts, my mobile number was never on his contacts even though me and him talked to eachother for about 4 years. I was really sad that he never really liked me either. And I stopped talking to him in 2018 because he never really trusted me.
And last but not least, I posted on Facebook that my dad was gonna send me to a group home, and none of my friends cared about what was going to happen to me. I don't understand why my dad was being extremely harsh at me like I'm a really bad person which I'm not. It's all because I yelled at my sister because she yelled at me first to turn off the heater, but I didn't want to because I was really cold, and my legs get sore easily if I don't have the heater. So basically, all my friends don't care if I end up in a group home, homeless, having seizures or being dead. So I deactivated my Facebook account because none of my so called friends cared about what was going to happen to me. So I'm basically unloved, unworthy, hopeless, & like the loneliest person on the planet.
My friends that I had in my childhood life and adult life were never real friends. The ones that seem super nice in the beginning, but then turn into assholes later on & become bullies, don't respect my boundaries, or try to make me feel bad for being who I am, then blame me for their behavior.
I thought I had a best friend named Rene. We were best friends for about 8 years from 2010 to 2018. I used to meet him in middle school in 2004 and became friends with me. Then when I made a little mistake about what I did to him in 2018, he and his friends treated me like I was a extremely bad person to him when I wasn't. Rene and his friends knew what my situation was. So I apologized and was remorseful to him, but he and his friends still don't care if I was remorseful or not. So they don't like me over a small mistake that I did to him. It's like I wasn't allowed to make even a tiny mistake to him or his friends. Rene used to abuse me by treating me like I was always stupid and he was always right when he actually wasn't always right. His friends knew about what Rene did to me in the past, but they didn't care. So basically, when I made mistakes to him even though they're small, they act like it's extremely bad and think that I should have no friends, but when he made giant mistakes to me, they act like it's perfectly okay. So I never had Rene or his friends as my friends at all, and it wrecked my confidence big time.
I also thought I had a friend named Thomas. We were friends in 2002. I thought he was a decent friend to me, but it turns out, he was never a real friend to me. He used to invite me to his place when we were in high school. After we graduated from high school, he abandoned me like I did something wrong to him, but I never did anything wrong to him. I try talking to him on the phone to keep the friendship from going down, but it didn't work. Then in 2014, when he finally invited me to his house again to hangout. You won't believe what he did to me. He was showing me a video of a random person throwing puppies in the river, so he abused me and thought I was going to do something really bad like that video he showed me and then threat to kill me if I ever did that. So that's when I thought Thomas was nothing but a toxic and a creep person.
I also thought I had a friend named Preston. We were friends for about 3 months in 2010. We used to talk on the phone. And then when I came to his house, his mom really liked me. His mom thought I was a really nice person. After that, Preston said that I became his bestfriend, but I found the truth that we weren't actually bestfriends. He abandoned me right after I was at his house. I don't understand why he did that to me. I did nothing wrong to lose the friendship. So I tried calling him to keep the friendship going, but he never answered his phone anymore. So basically, he didn't really like me.
I also thought I had a friend named Joel. Me and Rene were friends with Joel from 2012 to 2013. Me and Rene played with Joel's kids everytime we came over. Joel's kids said they liked me and Rene. The sad part about me was that Joel offered Rene to babysit his kids, but not me. I'm a great babysitter too, but Joel and his wife only treated me like a kid. I don't understand why they did that to me. Joel and his wife said I was a good person, but they never really trusted me, they only trusted my ex bestfriend Rene. That made me really sad.
I also thought I had a friend named Oscar. Me and him met eachother in tennis class at college in 2014. We were friends, but he never really trusted me at all. I got to see the truth about Oscar not trusting me when he gave me his phone to see that I texted him to see if he wanted to go to the fair with me to go on the rides, and when I saw his contacts, my mobile number was never on his contacts even though me and him talked to eachother for about 4 years. I was really sad that he never really liked me either. And I stopped talking to him in 2018 because he never really trusted me.
And last but not least, I posted on Facebook that my dad was gonna send me to a group home, and none of my friends cared about what was going to happen to me. I don't understand why my dad was being extremely harsh at me like I'm a really bad person which I'm not. It's all because I yelled at my sister because she yelled at me first to turn off the heater, but I didn't want to because I was really cold, and my legs get sore easily if I don't have the heater. So basically, all my friends don't care if I end up in a group home, homeless, having seizures or being dead. So I deactivated my Facebook account because none of my so called friends cared about what was going to happen to me. So I'm basically unloved, unworthy, hopeless, & like the loneliest person on the planet.