human007
Policy Enforcement
I have been having nightmares these past few years. But recently it has gotten worse. I've cut off relationship with abusers in my school (I'm not in the same school with them anymore). I've changed my number and delete all my social media. But they still insisted to get in touch with me because they felt sorry of what i felt in the past and until now (they don't actually mean it. once abuser will always be abuser). They still know my address and my little sister's contact so they came to my house once in awhile like on my birthday, on my father's funeral or just came once in a while to gave me a gift that i immediately throw to the trash. I felt so uncomfortable that they still trying to get in touch with me or befriended me. I wish i can scream in their faces straight to the point that i don't want anymore relationship with them. People always blame me that i can't do such a thing. Please don't blame me. I was taught to be submissive, can't say no and can't stand up for myself since i was kid and thats what i hate the most. Because even in my dreams i still can't say no, can't stand up for myself and let them hurt me. In my dreams they still get along with me while abusing me. But sometimes in my dreams they will act a little nicer. I'm so sick of this. I've tried to take sertraline from my ignorant psychiatrist but it just gave me more vivid nightmares that gave me anxiety to sleep.
I still live with my other abusers which are my family. I dreamt about them too where they'll be a little nicer and get along with me in my dream. I don't know how to stop this. They don't deserve to be in my dream. I wish they just rotten in hell.
I'm not sure if i will have nightmares like this forever, maybe when i finally move out it will all come to an end? But i feel like no matter i do, they will always haunting me.
I still live with my other abusers which are my family. I dreamt about them too where they'll be a little nicer and get along with me in my dream. I don't know how to stop this. They don't deserve to be in my dream. I wish they just rotten in hell.
I'm not sure if i will have nightmares like this forever, maybe when i finally move out it will all come to an end? But i feel like no matter i do, they will always haunting me.