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AnnieMae
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I can’t stop the back and forth anymore. The back and forth of the mental was that is in my mind. I was involved in a bad situation. I wish I wasn’t. I really wish things would be different. None of this is ok. This has seriously affected me, but I am always told to distract myself. I try. I try to build my dreams, I work hard. I try to be open to people, but every is all messed up. My judgement on people is not good because I trusted him and he messed me up. I took him back while on probation. Who does that? I have no one to help me, I am mentally Overwhelmed and dying alone. Everyone thinks I’m crazy. My family cries about it, I cry about it, and my friends know. But the outside world tells me to be strong. No one knows how strong you really are when you are fighting demons in your head. When you can’t make a decision to save your life. When you are told by one person to stand up for yourself and another to concede. What do you do???? The right person???? Doesn’t exist. I have no personality other than mirroring others. Or, someone mirrors me. I just want one man, one life, friends and a job. I think I’m making big mistakes, but I can’t take the pain anymore. The emotional pain, suffering and overall weirdness. If I buy a house, I think it will end it, but I won’t have any money to do other things. I am so tired and scared. Yes, scared. Mostly just tired. And the stress in my body and head is just intense. I never felt like that before. Does anyone else know how to get rid of it????
When a pathological liar sets you up, how do you fix it? The anxiety just won’t go away...
When a pathological liar sets you up, how do you fix it? The anxiety just won’t go away...
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