Im exhausted and sad and I've been fighting this CPTSD for years and so many therapists refuse to work with me within a framework of recovery and at 30 I just feel exhausted and devastated. I feel like my abuser has won, I can't keep a relationship, my mother and I aren't even talking and therapists won't even talk about resolving the CPTSD. I've tried EDMR, I've tried talking therapies. I'm currently having to make an NHS complaint because of malpractice with the therapist I was meant to be seeing So I'm without therapy again and I'm just sick and exhausted of being treated like I'm too sick/ broken to repair, to love.