Hi, I`m new to this forum. I`m 25 years old, female from Scandinavia, been diagnosed with PTSD since i was a teenager, I`m here because i am feeling alone and lost in my thoughts. I`ve been having these thoughts lately that i am weak for having been so traumatized by what happened to me, and "who knows if it really was that bad" because i do have gaps in memory. But i figure i`m not the only one who has had thoughts like that, I also know that my trauma was really bad and very layered in that it was verbal, psychological, physical and sexual at times. It was prolonged over a period of years. Some of my earliest memories are of my traumas.I suppose i am struggling to validate my own experience and take myself seriously, all the while dealing with the very real symptoms and effects of my traumas. I have been going to therapy for about a decade but for the first time in my adult life i`m not seeing a therapist at the moment - which is a huge adjustment for me. So i think not having that safe space i am used to is challenging and frightening for me and i feel a bit lost, even though i can talk to those around me, there are some things i am not comfortable discussing with them. I guess i just need to vent and not feel so alone:)