cntrymom08466
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Well, I haven't been on here much, but today something happened that I'm not sure what it was for sure.
First off I've been married to my 2nd husband for 15 years. It's been mostly great. My first and my kids' father was the emotionally abusive of me and sexually abused my daughter. (I don't call it his daughter anymore.)
Anyway, I'm 55 and I was taking some birth control at one time to help with what the dr. called flashbacks because of going through menopause I was told. Then last year, I was put on HRT instead and I had some trouble with it, causing other problems. So about a month or month and a half ago I got off of it and have felt pretty much ok.
But last week, there was some conflict with some of my family and I was trying to figure out how to make it work for everybody, then all of a sudden I got angry and upset and it reminded me of trying to "fix" everything for my ex so he wouldn't be upset and angry. Which he was bi-polar we found out late in our relationship too.
Then today, my current love, has had a gambling problem in the past. He has been good about not going in over a year. Well, today he is not working and he came by the office and then left and I tried to reach him for something and he has his location turned on for me. And I saw he was at the casino here in town, I got real upset and tried to call him and he wouldn't answer, after about 20 minutes of trying to reach him, I couldn't hold it in and just started crying. To give you a little of why I was upset, there were many Christmases and birthdays and that I didn't get any gift and barely were able to get our kids' anything, because he had spent all our money at the casino.
He finally called me today after he left and I tried to talk to him, but couldn't he said he was fine and all that, but I was still crying hard. So I hung up.
Are these episodes I guess some kind of flashback? I don't know what to do about them, without getting back on hormones or different medication. I'm already on 300 mg. of Effexor, 100 mg of trazodone and buspar. I've been on celexa, zoloft and cymbalta at one time. Am I just going to have to ride these out? Help please.
First off I've been married to my 2nd husband for 15 years. It's been mostly great. My first and my kids' father was the emotionally abusive of me and sexually abused my daughter. (I don't call it his daughter anymore.)
Anyway, I'm 55 and I was taking some birth control at one time to help with what the dr. called flashbacks because of going through menopause I was told. Then last year, I was put on HRT instead and I had some trouble with it, causing other problems. So about a month or month and a half ago I got off of it and have felt pretty much ok.
But last week, there was some conflict with some of my family and I was trying to figure out how to make it work for everybody, then all of a sudden I got angry and upset and it reminded me of trying to "fix" everything for my ex so he wouldn't be upset and angry. Which he was bi-polar we found out late in our relationship too.
Then today, my current love, has had a gambling problem in the past. He has been good about not going in over a year. Well, today he is not working and he came by the office and then left and I tried to reach him for something and he has his location turned on for me. And I saw he was at the casino here in town, I got real upset and tried to call him and he wouldn't answer, after about 20 minutes of trying to reach him, I couldn't hold it in and just started crying. To give you a little of why I was upset, there were many Christmases and birthdays and that I didn't get any gift and barely were able to get our kids' anything, because he had spent all our money at the casino.
He finally called me today after he left and I tried to talk to him, but couldn't he said he was fine and all that, but I was still crying hard. So I hung up.
Are these episodes I guess some kind of flashback? I don't know what to do about them, without getting back on hormones or different medication. I'm already on 300 mg. of Effexor, 100 mg of trazodone and buspar. I've been on celexa, zoloft and cymbalta at one time. Am I just going to have to ride these out? Help please.
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