Hello, I just graduated from an intensive outpatient partial hospitalization program last Friday. I feel like I'm no longer in severe distress but I am now struggling with depression.
On July 1,2022 will mark the 1 year anniversary of when my ex-fiancé was arrested and our home raided by the FBI due to my ex's possession of child pornography. We have 2 little ones. A girl 3 years old and a boy 1 year old. He has since been released from prison on March 1,2022 and that's when I lost my ability to regulate my emotions. We have no contact. I want him as far away as possible. He was masturbating to little girls age 2-14..
I have been pushing forward for my kids this past year. However, upon his release it's been a struggle to keep my head above water. I started having nightmares, hyper vigilance, difficulty sleeping and eating, mood swings.. all too familiar to myself. I'm a survivor and this is not my first rodeo with PTSD. From 8years old-12 years old my cousin would molest me. I worked on that trauma only in adulthood but survived and thrived. This time around, there's more fear, guilt, shame, anger, and anguish.
I have 2 people in my support system that I feel like I can confide in. I would like to find more people who is in a healing journey as well.
On July 1,2022 will mark the 1 year anniversary of when my ex-fiancé was arrested and our home raided by the FBI due to my ex's possession of child pornography. We have 2 little ones. A girl 3 years old and a boy 1 year old. He has since been released from prison on March 1,2022 and that's when I lost my ability to regulate my emotions. We have no contact. I want him as far away as possible. He was masturbating to little girls age 2-14..
I have been pushing forward for my kids this past year. However, upon his release it's been a struggle to keep my head above water. I started having nightmares, hyper vigilance, difficulty sleeping and eating, mood swings.. all too familiar to myself. I'm a survivor and this is not my first rodeo with PTSD. From 8years old-12 years old my cousin would molest me. I worked on that trauma only in adulthood but survived and thrived. This time around, there's more fear, guilt, shame, anger, and anguish.
I have 2 people in my support system that I feel like I can confide in. I would like to find more people who is in a healing journey as well.