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At the age of 20 I was hit by a drunk driver and am now permanently disabled, living with an endless list of injuries both physical and mental. The PTSD from the 8 months I spent living in hospital haunts me every single day and will do forever.
I say living but I don't really mean. I haven't lived since the day it happened I have only attempted to survive. The only way I can do this is through avoidance as if I really sit down, acknowledge this black cloud around me and realise what has happened to my life I wont be able to cope.
I am now 22 and still wishing every day away. All I do is avoid thinking about how much I hate my life and I do so through the most unhealthy coping mechanisms. Drugs, partying and casual sex isn't going to undo what happened that day so why do I continue to do all of it all of the time. It's getting me no where but I just cannot stop.
I feel like I am killing myself slowly and there is no way out.
Any healthy coping mechanisms out there?
I say living but I don't really mean. I haven't lived since the day it happened I have only attempted to survive. The only way I can do this is through avoidance as if I really sit down, acknowledge this black cloud around me and realise what has happened to my life I wont be able to cope.
I am now 22 and still wishing every day away. All I do is avoid thinking about how much I hate my life and I do so through the most unhealthy coping mechanisms. Drugs, partying and casual sex isn't going to undo what happened that day so why do I continue to do all of it all of the time. It's getting me no where but I just cannot stop.
I feel like I am killing myself slowly and there is no way out.
Any healthy coping mechanisms out there?
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