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I remember when i was about 5 until i was 7 my cousin who was a year younger than me would ask me to make out every time he came to our house. I would agree and do it and never initiate it but would expect it to happen. I think i enjoyed it. This included hugging and we mostly did it while "playing house" and "pretending to sleep" so it was in bed.
When I was 5 or 6 a classmate from kindergarten same age told me to come over to her house. In her room she told me to kiss her and we made out while lying in bed for a few hours. At first i said no but she insisted so i agreed. I felt guilty afterwards.
Sometime when i was 5 or so i started masturbating without knowing what it meant. When it became known to me that it wasn't right to do it i started doing it in private, always feeling shame afterwards. I continued until i learned what masturbation was and started doing it with my hands and not feeling shame.
What i want to know is if there's a possibility that these 2 things were considered abuse or that maybe i blocked some memories, considering i started masturbating so young. Mostly i want to know if a child can start masturbating so young without being exposed to abuse, or if it's tied to those experiences i mentioned.
Thank you for reading.
When I was 5 or 6 a classmate from kindergarten same age told me to come over to her house. In her room she told me to kiss her and we made out while lying in bed for a few hours. At first i said no but she insisted so i agreed. I felt guilty afterwards.
Sometime when i was 5 or so i started masturbating without knowing what it meant. When it became known to me that it wasn't right to do it i started doing it in private, always feeling shame afterwards. I continued until i learned what masturbation was and started doing it with my hands and not feeling shame.
What i want to know is if there's a possibility that these 2 things were considered abuse or that maybe i blocked some memories, considering i started masturbating so young. Mostly i want to know if a child can start masturbating so young without being exposed to abuse, or if it's tied to those experiences i mentioned.
Thank you for reading.