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I just saw this on a Facebook meme and, while I don’t generally consider my life through the lens of memes, this one did strike a chord.
If I think back to a key event I experienced when I was 13, I don’t remember feeling that bothered by it. When I look back on that time and the subsequent years, I can see that there were signs in my behaviours etc that I was impacted by it, that I wasn’t ok about it. But I really don’t remember paying much attention to it. I definitely don’t recall consciously feeling particularly horrified/frightened/upset about it.
But talking about it in therapy? Or connecting to that experience now when I journal? Or when I come across similar themes elsewhere? Yeah…I so viscerally experience the intensity and brutality of the impact.
So, the wounding must also have been those things, however much - or little - I think I felt it at the time?
Not sure what this post is for really! Just sharing it in case it resonates with anyone. And if anyone wants to comment on what it brings up for them (whether it resonates with you personally and your own experience, or not) I’d be really interested to hear what anyone else makes of it.
If I think back to a key event I experienced when I was 13, I don’t remember feeling that bothered by it. When I look back on that time and the subsequent years, I can see that there were signs in my behaviours etc that I was impacted by it, that I wasn’t ok about it. But I really don’t remember paying much attention to it. I definitely don’t recall consciously feeling particularly horrified/frightened/upset about it.
But talking about it in therapy? Or connecting to that experience now when I journal? Or when I come across similar themes elsewhere? Yeah…I so viscerally experience the intensity and brutality of the impact.
So, the wounding must also have been those things, however much - or little - I think I felt it at the time?
Not sure what this post is for really! Just sharing it in case it resonates with anyone. And if anyone wants to comment on what it brings up for them (whether it resonates with you personally and your own experience, or not) I’d be really interested to hear what anyone else makes of it.