shadowonthewall
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Hi
Just found and joined this site today, so Hi.
Diagnosed with cptsd in 2017 and started therapy with a clinical psychologist. For various reasons we had to keep stopping therapy and restarting. In 2020 covid happened and everything f2f just stopped. I'd started EMDR with the psychologist but then she retired at the end of 2020 so we never finished our work. The CMHT then discharged me because I wasn't able to continue attending in-person appointments. Since then I've been drifting, trying to find something/someone else to help. I eventually found a therapist I really connected with and was able to trust, then she became ill and subsequently died, her death absolutely shattered me. I'm now trying again with another therapist but it's not the same, I don't have that same connection, I'm wary about opening up too much in case I lose her as well.
I'm trying to avoid my usual go-to response of just shutting down as I know that isn't helpful but I'm struggling to stay connected to everything and everyone. It's not a life, it's an existence.
Hoping someone can relate.
Just found and joined this site today, so Hi.
Diagnosed with cptsd in 2017 and started therapy with a clinical psychologist. For various reasons we had to keep stopping therapy and restarting. In 2020 covid happened and everything f2f just stopped. I'd started EMDR with the psychologist but then she retired at the end of 2020 so we never finished our work. The CMHT then discharged me because I wasn't able to continue attending in-person appointments. Since then I've been drifting, trying to find something/someone else to help. I eventually found a therapist I really connected with and was able to trust, then she became ill and subsequently died, her death absolutely shattered me. I'm now trying again with another therapist but it's not the same, I don't have that same connection, I'm wary about opening up too much in case I lose her as well.
I'm trying to avoid my usual go-to response of just shutting down as I know that isn't helpful but I'm struggling to stay connected to everything and everyone. It's not a life, it's an existence.
Hoping someone can relate.