Every year I give myself a day.
One single day to fully immerse myself in everything negative that I usually spend every other day of the year repressing or healing through Meds or therapy or whatever coping mechanism seems to be working at the time. I always focus on how to get better and be better and make my life worth living.
But this one day a year......
I call this day Happy Regret Day.
Its a single day set aside to grieve, hate, rage, cry, scream or what ever I feel I have to let out. Allowed Without Guilt.
All the hurt and pain and anger that most days I cant even form into words without metaphorically describing it, even then to leave anyone who has the bad luck to hear confused and deeply concerned for my mental health.
Sometimes I get drunk, sometimes I scream in my car, sometimes I break things, sometimes I cry. I go with wherever opening the flood gates of this particular dam takes me.
Today is my very special day (side note I should have booked the day off work)
SIDE NOTE THERE ARE RULES TO FOLLOW.
-No harming others
-No Harming myself
-No doing anything that will get me a criminal record
-No breaking anything i cant afford to replace.
My special cocktail of repressed emotions this year is ANGRY.. I can feel the rage building into a ball deep in my stomach.
On days like today I wish I could go back in time to the events that caused this horrible feeling and give it back to those that gifted it to me.
Good thing time travel is not a possibility right..
What would you do that wont have lasting consequences when you are alone in the world to help vent this feeling?
I don't think screaming at B grade movies is going to cut it tonight.....
Sorry for the ramble..
One single day to fully immerse myself in everything negative that I usually spend every other day of the year repressing or healing through Meds or therapy or whatever coping mechanism seems to be working at the time. I always focus on how to get better and be better and make my life worth living.
But this one day a year......
I call this day Happy Regret Day.
Its a single day set aside to grieve, hate, rage, cry, scream or what ever I feel I have to let out. Allowed Without Guilt.
All the hurt and pain and anger that most days I cant even form into words without metaphorically describing it, even then to leave anyone who has the bad luck to hear confused and deeply concerned for my mental health.
Sometimes I get drunk, sometimes I scream in my car, sometimes I break things, sometimes I cry. I go with wherever opening the flood gates of this particular dam takes me.
Today is my very special day (side note I should have booked the day off work)
SIDE NOTE THERE ARE RULES TO FOLLOW.
-No harming others
-No Harming myself
-No doing anything that will get me a criminal record
-No breaking anything i cant afford to replace.
My special cocktail of repressed emotions this year is ANGRY.. I can feel the rage building into a ball deep in my stomach.
On days like today I wish I could go back in time to the events that caused this horrible feeling and give it back to those that gifted it to me.
Good thing time travel is not a possibility right..
What would you do that wont have lasting consequences when you are alone in the world to help vent this feeling?
I don't think screaming at B grade movies is going to cut it tonight.....
Sorry for the ramble..
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