LeiaFlower
Confident
This is more as a soundboard on whether or not I should resign from my current job.
It's my dream job in the sense of doing something I'm passionate about as well as can grow in. The pay is okay though it could be better if I was given more opportunities with having additional clients. However, I'm struggling to keep myself afloat mentally. I just got out of an inpatient program after telling my therapist about intrusive thoughts. I was previously struggling with keeping up with school, and it felt like my relationships were deteriorating. Now I'm doing somewhat okay but I'm scared to go back to my job. I was in a position where I had everything going for me. I had a dream job, going to school for something I'm passionate about, and improving my relationships with people. Nevertheless, I was still emotionally empty. I don't want to quit simply for the fact that I don't want others to look down on me. Or think I'm dramatic and hysterical for letting go of something perfect. Though the job did have its flaws, stressors that were adding to my already empty feeling. I genuinely don't know what to do. I don't want to make a bad decision and ruin something good in my life. But I wasn't happy. I tried to push through it but that only increased the suicidal and intrusive thoughts. But maybe since I've been on leave and getting somewhat stable I can return? Maybe it won't be as bad if I readjust things. Shouldn't I try again before quitting? Regardless I told my doctor that my return to work date is tomorrow. I need to figure out what to do instead of running from my anxiety.
It's my dream job in the sense of doing something I'm passionate about as well as can grow in. The pay is okay though it could be better if I was given more opportunities with having additional clients. However, I'm struggling to keep myself afloat mentally. I just got out of an inpatient program after telling my therapist about intrusive thoughts. I was previously struggling with keeping up with school, and it felt like my relationships were deteriorating. Now I'm doing somewhat okay but I'm scared to go back to my job. I was in a position where I had everything going for me. I had a dream job, going to school for something I'm passionate about, and improving my relationships with people. Nevertheless, I was still emotionally empty. I don't want to quit simply for the fact that I don't want others to look down on me. Or think I'm dramatic and hysterical for letting go of something perfect. Though the job did have its flaws, stressors that were adding to my already empty feeling. I genuinely don't know what to do. I don't want to make a bad decision and ruin something good in my life. But I wasn't happy. I tried to push through it but that only increased the suicidal and intrusive thoughts. But maybe since I've been on leave and getting somewhat stable I can return? Maybe it won't be as bad if I readjust things. Shouldn't I try again before quitting? Regardless I told my doctor that my return to work date is tomorrow. I need to figure out what to do instead of running from my anxiety.