Freida
MyPTSD Pro
Is been almost three weeks since I used that word...torture.
Never before outside of therapy or here with you all. But in front of people, being honest. Face to face.
Is been long enough now that I'm freaked or about what they must think of me.
I don't want them to think of me... not good, not bad, not anything. I don't want their pity or their praise. I just want to take it back
Then i tell myself i just used the word - I didn't tell them what happened so there are no details. So they don't really know what happened.
I think how wrong it feels ....the danger factor goes way up because you aren't supposed to tell anyone. Talking means death.
But it's just a word
It doesn't change anything.
I'm still me
Its just a word
Never before outside of therapy or here with you all. But in front of people, being honest. Face to face.
Is been long enough now that I'm freaked or about what they must think of me.
I don't want them to think of me... not good, not bad, not anything. I don't want their pity or their praise. I just want to take it back
Then i tell myself i just used the word - I didn't tell them what happened so there are no details. So they don't really know what happened.
I think how wrong it feels ....the danger factor goes way up because you aren't supposed to tell anyone. Talking means death.
But it's just a word
It doesn't change anything.
I'm still me
Its just a word