The_One
Learning
So I understand my therapists focus is EMDR and I know she loves EMDR. I agreed to do that and work up to it, so we did a couple sessions about like 9-10 of them, just talking therapy, resourcing . Etc. I did the EMDR and it was too much for me, so much so I had SI thoughts. She’s trained in SI and everything suicide related so she didn’t commit me lol. And I didn’t have a plan.
But now that I told her EMDR is off the table and I don’t think I can do EMDR she has kinda changed and I don’t get the point of sessions anymore.
I think her specialty is EMDR, and the things that revolve around it, guided meditation, imagery, resourcing, finding tools for EMDR during sessions we don’t do EMDR. That sort of thing.
I realized the last two sessions we have been together after I told her I’m not looking for EMDR anymore. It could’ve literally killed me. She seems disinterested, her eyes dart everywhere, she seems really tired. I don’t think I’m overthinking but I notice peoples little micro behaviors and I know for a fact either last night she was not feeling good or she’s really over sessions.
Last nights session she seemed really drained right off the bat. She looked really tired coming into therapy, she looked very disinterested. She told me she suffers from PMDD, it’s really bad. So I’m thinking she was on her period and was feeling so shitty. I wanted to ask her but didn’t. I started talking about what happened this week. We did a little bit of talk therapy. And then she switched and changed the subject and asked about finances (how I’m gonna pay for next weeks session) whar my pcps info is. And then she gave me an option either we do guided imagery meditation because I was feeling really really anxious about this subject. Or continue talk therapy on this subject and processing. She was really nice about it all, so it’s not like she was like UM ANYWAYS SO.
And I felt bad like maybe she wasn’t into the talk therapy she didn’t wanna do it. So I chose guided meditation. We did it and we talked afterwards about what came up, and when I opened my eyes, it’s like a new person came out of nowhere and she was back to her normal self.
We talked about religion bc that came out of guided imagery something we never talked about and she said she learned something new about me.
I don’t know… i really like her and I still do. But I’m getting this little feeling that ever since I said I don’t want to do EMDR she has kind of checked out a little of our sessions. It’s clear to me she is really really into EMDR and everything associated with it so much so that talk therapy is not really important to her.
I’m not into EMDR, I don’t know if I ever will be. I’m starting to think we might not be a match anymore even tho she’s truly the best I’ve ever had. She’s like my third therapist and I really don’t want to switch but I don’t want to pay for sessions like this one where we only do guided imagery which I can do by myself or resourcing . It sounds like she doesn’t want to get to know me like she previously did. And I don’t want to do EMDR especially since I was kinda rushed into it.
I don’t know what to do, but maybe I do need to find a new therapist. I’m a little disappointed.
But now that I told her EMDR is off the table and I don’t think I can do EMDR she has kinda changed and I don’t get the point of sessions anymore.
I think her specialty is EMDR, and the things that revolve around it, guided meditation, imagery, resourcing, finding tools for EMDR during sessions we don’t do EMDR. That sort of thing.
I realized the last two sessions we have been together after I told her I’m not looking for EMDR anymore. It could’ve literally killed me. She seems disinterested, her eyes dart everywhere, she seems really tired. I don’t think I’m overthinking but I notice peoples little micro behaviors and I know for a fact either last night she was not feeling good or she’s really over sessions.
Last nights session she seemed really drained right off the bat. She looked really tired coming into therapy, she looked very disinterested. She told me she suffers from PMDD, it’s really bad. So I’m thinking she was on her period and was feeling so shitty. I wanted to ask her but didn’t. I started talking about what happened this week. We did a little bit of talk therapy. And then she switched and changed the subject and asked about finances (how I’m gonna pay for next weeks session) whar my pcps info is. And then she gave me an option either we do guided imagery meditation because I was feeling really really anxious about this subject. Or continue talk therapy on this subject and processing. She was really nice about it all, so it’s not like she was like UM ANYWAYS SO.
And I felt bad like maybe she wasn’t into the talk therapy she didn’t wanna do it. So I chose guided meditation. We did it and we talked afterwards about what came up, and when I opened my eyes, it’s like a new person came out of nowhere and she was back to her normal self.
We talked about religion bc that came out of guided imagery something we never talked about and she said she learned something new about me.
I don’t know… i really like her and I still do. But I’m getting this little feeling that ever since I said I don’t want to do EMDR she has kind of checked out a little of our sessions. It’s clear to me she is really really into EMDR and everything associated with it so much so that talk therapy is not really important to her.
I’m not into EMDR, I don’t know if I ever will be. I’m starting to think we might not be a match anymore even tho she’s truly the best I’ve ever had. She’s like my third therapist and I really don’t want to switch but I don’t want to pay for sessions like this one where we only do guided imagery which I can do by myself or resourcing . It sounds like she doesn’t want to get to know me like she previously did. And I don’t want to do EMDR especially since I was kinda rushed into it.
I don’t know what to do, but maybe I do need to find a new therapist. I’m a little disappointed.