I was 10 and he was maybe 14-15. Thinking back we didn't feel so far apart, but I checked a bit ago and he had graduated highschool a year or two back.
The first time had been him, already 14 or 15, and his friend, 15 or 16. Ive always been a foodie and despite how embarrassing it is to admit, I agreed to do a sexual act for some saltine crackers. That's so embarrassing. I felt so grown, but so disgusted when it was over. It didn't end, they were my babysitters while my parents went out. My friend, his sister didn't question any of the times he'd led me back to his bedroom, putting on inappropriate horror films as background noise. I felt so loved, so I gladly followed him. I had never felt so wanted.
He continued this for a while, him agreeing to share me with his friend, letting him have his time with me. I never felt this was wrong because I agreed. There's so much more, as this went for about 2 years, going over to their house almost every weekend.
I'm 15 now, and my sister is now 10 and I cannot understand what he saw in me as attractive. I was a little kid.
It wasn't even just him, at 7-9 I had friend who lived down the street, and every sleep over we'd do anything sexual she could come up with. She was 2 years my senior and I didn't know what any of it was.
I'd also blame this all for me allowing myself to get groomed online at 11-13, sending explicit photos to a 25 year old man at 11. This didn't sound nearly as horrible in my head.
Sorry if this sounds scrambled, I have a bad memory.
The first time had been him, already 14 or 15, and his friend, 15 or 16. Ive always been a foodie and despite how embarrassing it is to admit, I agreed to do a sexual act for some saltine crackers. That's so embarrassing. I felt so grown, but so disgusted when it was over. It didn't end, they were my babysitters while my parents went out. My friend, his sister didn't question any of the times he'd led me back to his bedroom, putting on inappropriate horror films as background noise. I felt so loved, so I gladly followed him. I had never felt so wanted.
He continued this for a while, him agreeing to share me with his friend, letting him have his time with me. I never felt this was wrong because I agreed. There's so much more, as this went for about 2 years, going over to their house almost every weekend.
I'm 15 now, and my sister is now 10 and I cannot understand what he saw in me as attractive. I was a little kid.
It wasn't even just him, at 7-9 I had friend who lived down the street, and every sleep over we'd do anything sexual she could come up with. She was 2 years my senior and I didn't know what any of it was.
I'd also blame this all for me allowing myself to get groomed online at 11-13, sending explicit photos to a 25 year old man at 11. This didn't sound nearly as horrible in my head.
Sorry if this sounds scrambled, I have a bad memory.