I have recently discovered, through my therapist, that all of the issues I have had over the years are cumulative complex PTSD. The abuse and neglect as a child, sexual abuse, and many relationships with addicted and abusive partners. It seems that that is the underlying culprit in my ongoing anxiety and depression issues. On top of that I have had a serious injury a few years ago, which is left me with chronic pain which has exacerbated my anxiety and depression. It’s hard to even see myself typing this, basically saying it out loud. It’s a hard pill to swallow, but I am now taking more steps towards self-care, including finally willing to take some anti-depressants, or at least try them. I have avoided that for many years now and try to do everything holistically, but I’m finding that I’m still struggling and needing more help than I thought. It’s nice to find this group and feel less alone. Thanks for adding me.