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MyMomMySolace
It's been 3 weeks since I lose my Mama. She's only 54 years old and I'm 26yrs old. I felt like she haven't lived her life yet.
I tried to go back to normal, going back to work, finishing some projects.
But night would come and I'll be alone with my thoughts. The guilt for not giving my Mama a good life she deserve, for not taking care of her more. I should been with her more. She's my home, the only reason I tried to hard in life.
I miss her terribly.
From that day on, I can't fall asleep until daybreak, when I saw lights seeps through the window.
I feel so alone. I lose my purpose.
Why try hard to live?
But I have to support my jobless father, have to support my jobless sisters, need to help pay the house loan, need to pay utilities. I need to love so they can live.
But then night would come again, and I'll be alone realizing that I can no longer be with my mama, cannot hug her, laugh with her and dream together for our future.
Christmas is coming and I'm dreading it, cause I know we won't be a complete family ever again.
I tried to go back to normal, going back to work, finishing some projects.
But night would come and I'll be alone with my thoughts. The guilt for not giving my Mama a good life she deserve, for not taking care of her more. I should been with her more. She's my home, the only reason I tried to hard in life.
I miss her terribly.
From that day on, I can't fall asleep until daybreak, when I saw lights seeps through the window.
I feel so alone. I lose my purpose.
Why try hard to live?
But I have to support my jobless father, have to support my jobless sisters, need to help pay the house loan, need to pay utilities. I need to love so they can live.
But then night would come again, and I'll be alone realizing that I can no longer be with my mama, cannot hug her, laugh with her and dream together for our future.
Christmas is coming and I'm dreading it, cause I know we won't be a complete family ever again.