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My nephew got engaged. His father (my ex-brother-in-law) was one of my rapists. I’m petrified of him.
They had quite a few kids and it was torture seeing him at each wedding. And now the last one, the baby, is engaged.
Difference between those times and now: I had not retrieved any of my trauma memories yet. Although I was petrified of him, I didn’t know why.
Now I do.
I should be happy for my nephew.
Instead I’ve been crying nonstop since finding out.
(I’m also worried that I may confront him)
So many panic attacks today. Anyone deal with something like this? Help? Advice??
Help!
They had quite a few kids and it was torture seeing him at each wedding. And now the last one, the baby, is engaged.
Difference between those times and now: I had not retrieved any of my trauma memories yet. Although I was petrified of him, I didn’t know why.
Now I do.
I should be happy for my nephew.
Instead I’ve been crying nonstop since finding out.
(I’m also worried that I may confront him)
So many panic attacks today. Anyone deal with something like this? Help? Advice??
Help!