Hi there.
I’m writing to hopefully gain some resources and support around the topic of bullying. I’ve been reading several books on complex ptsd which almost always focus primarily on childhood trauma caused by parental abuse or neglect. While I acknowledge parental neglect as a factor in my childhood traumas and my encounters with bullying, I still haven’t really found good info on dealing with that particular type of trauma.
I’ll specify that I encountered near daily bullying from preschool through 8th grade; nearly 9 years of consistent severe bullying that in my view has caused me a seemingly irreparable amount of long term mental health issues for decades since.
There of course was neglect by the school system officials, teachers and my parents.
My mother was an alcoholic who had her own mental health issues stemming from the violent death of her brother in her teens, who I happen to be named after. For years I’ve brought this stuff up to therapists but I’ve yet to actually have it addressed and unpacked to sort out what caused what and so forth. I don’t remember a time in my childhood before the bullying but I do know that I never felt that I fit in and always felt a step behind the other kids social, never feeling safe.
My first day of kindergarten I was actually carried by my hands and feet out of my mothers car by the clergy members who ran the school and carried up two flights of stairs kicking and screaming, finally left alone in a hallway outside the door of the classroom.
I would really like to find more info on dealing with long term trauma like this that isn’t solely focused on dealing with parental abuse.
Thanks
I’m writing to hopefully gain some resources and support around the topic of bullying. I’ve been reading several books on complex ptsd which almost always focus primarily on childhood trauma caused by parental abuse or neglect. While I acknowledge parental neglect as a factor in my childhood traumas and my encounters with bullying, I still haven’t really found good info on dealing with that particular type of trauma.
I’ll specify that I encountered near daily bullying from preschool through 8th grade; nearly 9 years of consistent severe bullying that in my view has caused me a seemingly irreparable amount of long term mental health issues for decades since.
There of course was neglect by the school system officials, teachers and my parents.
My mother was an alcoholic who had her own mental health issues stemming from the violent death of her brother in her teens, who I happen to be named after. For years I’ve brought this stuff up to therapists but I’ve yet to actually have it addressed and unpacked to sort out what caused what and so forth. I don’t remember a time in my childhood before the bullying but I do know that I never felt that I fit in and always felt a step behind the other kids social, never feeling safe.
My first day of kindergarten I was actually carried by my hands and feet out of my mothers car by the clergy members who ran the school and carried up two flights of stairs kicking and screaming, finally left alone in a hallway outside the door of the classroom.
I would really like to find more info on dealing with long term trauma like this that isn’t solely focused on dealing with parental abuse.
Thanks