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I feel.. alone. I spent so much of my day just surviving from panic attack to panic attack. It feels so hollow. It feels so unending. This constant cycle. One good day to a week of awful days and back again. I don't sleep at night much anymore. I have too many things that hurt me all the time. I...

Hey everyone. I hope you're doing okay. A lot has been going on and I feel really alone I guess... I haven't posted on here in a while. I feel like I'm treading water. I'm always just a moment away from slipping back under. My depression is okay when I'm with my family during the day, But at...

So f*cking tired of feeling like shit. I have a good week or month followed by weeks of self-hatred and thoughts that I'd be better off dead. I feel like I'm getting triggered by everything. My service dog just split his nails today and I want to scream about it. He's going to be on bed rest for...

Yeah, I'm just disappointed to be so disabled. It's frustrating not remembering to do basic things like bathing and eating. I feel like an intelligent person but I'm trapped in this body and mind that's broken.

Yeah I'm between therapists at the moment and I think that it's a major reason I'm having such a rough time right now

Thank you <3 I appreciate it. I'm here with you too.

today sucks. I relapsed with my self-harm and I don't even know why I did it. Today wasn't particularly bad, yet here I am. I'm so f*cking angry at myself and everyone else. I feel it in my bones and it won't f*cking stop. I'm so angry and depressed. Is this life worth living? I don't know. I...

i ended up staying for three hours. my anxiety had built this party up to be some huge monster and it went fine. It was sensory f*cking overload but my dog did f*cking amazing. I'm so incredibly proud of him and how far he's come in his training. thank you for letting me vent when i was panicking

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tonight ( in like an hour) me and my service dog have to go to a party. This is our first outing together in over a year. we only really know two people who are going and my heart feelings like it's gonna beat out of my chest. I'm so worried that my dog isn't ready and that he's still too...

I feel like I don't post anything positive on this website so I wanted to share something good with you all <3 My service dog has shown a lot of progress with his reactivity over the past few weeks. This is because both of us have been getting out more and experiencing life again. He truly...

My teeth hurt. I keep clenching my jaw. Tonight I don't think sleep is coming. I'm too f*cking angry and filled with hate. My entire body wants to revolt. There's this great big ball of sadness too. Like my chest weighs a thousand pounds and my bones ache. I want to crawl out of my skin. I can't...

agoraphobia f*cking sucks haven't left my apartment in two months again. I got a notification from an old friend and I'm trying not to spiral. It's brought up a lot of negative memories and I'm trying to just shut it out so they don't become f*cking flashbacks. I just I'm really exhausted...

Thank you I'm trying to be okay with just knowing that I'm further along on my journey than I think but it's just the feeling that I haven't made any progress is so frustrating and difficult to deal with. I'm lucky enough that I have some ideas for people to take him and some more resources...

It's been a month since I was in the hospital I've had to face some tough truths about everything I'm going through and everything I've been through I am still so anxious around people. I'm not magically fixed. My memory is still shit. I just... I wish I was free from all of this. I'm so...

thank you so much I'll try my best thank you very much I needed this support a lot I'm going through something very similar

I'm pretty sure tomorrow I'm going into inpatient for the first time. I've never been so f*cking terrified and empty and it all feels worthless. How do I do this? I'm so f*ckign scared. I wish I didn't have to go but It's all been set up for me already and I can't do anything to put this out of...

Update: Talked to some people close to me and they all agree it's best if I take a break from school for now if not permanently and that I need to get on disability because of how unstable and unpredictable my diagnoses are that maintaining a job will be all but impossible and will only make...

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Just society I guess? I can't shake this feeling that I'm a failure. I'm trying so f*cking hard but it doesn't seem like it matters. I'm trying to just be proud of myself for even being here but I can't go to class anymore. I can't do my work-study job anymore. I don't even feel good going to...

I can't function lately. I'm missing weeks going on months of my life. I don't know who I am anymore or where or what I'm doing 99% of the time. I'm missing so f*cking much but no I'm supposed to be normal. I'm supposed to go to class and work and be f*cking fine. and I'm not. and I don't think...

it's a bit of both. this person told me they want nothing to do with me anymore and that i let our relationship be one-sided which i don't f*cking understand but it all f*cking started because they got in a fight with another friend of ours so now I'm done with people. I'm done with it all.

I don't know why my friend is pulling away from me. I don't understand what I've done to them personally to make them hate me. I don't get it. One friend f*cked up and got in a fight with them and this friend literally dropped off all the stuff we were working on at my apartment and jus left...

thank you i'm trying to learn the same lesson but it's hard trying to go against your programming you know? i need to set better boundaries but I'm so shitty at being able to express them or fight for them that i just give up. I'm gonna try and let go of some of this thank you for listening and...

All this f*cking shit going on has stirred up so many feelings and memories and I can't f*cking breathe. I hate how much she was in my life I hate that I still have to use the shit she gave me I hate that I remember her at all. I hate that she could control me so easily. i hate that i can't go...