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    Sexual Assault Very confused about my childhood

    I do that too.... I just spoke to my mentor, and she told me that I seem to be giving off the vibe of hopelessness, despair and "what's the point of even trying". And the only one that can change that, and want it, is me. Maybe it's because I feel like it's all being forced down my throat...
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    Sexual Assault Very confused about my childhood

    What do you mean, not quite ready? How do I know when I'm ready? I thought no flashbacks or nightmares would mean I've processed the trauma already, but that bothers me very much, because although I WANT to be healed - but when my brother is around, or somebody touches me, or I feel unsafe and...
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    Sexual Assault Very confused about my childhood

    Hey... I'm new here. I'm not sure how this works, but I'm looking for an answer and maybe somebody over here can help me...? I was sexually abused from the age of 10 up until my late teenage years by my brother. I have C-PTSD, but I've never had recurring flashbacks or nightmares. The more I...
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    Started EMDR therapy but haven't done EMDR yet

    I'm scared they'll tell my parents.... If my parents find out - I... It's not worth it for me Thank you! C.A.R.E.S.S sounds like a good coping skill.
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    Started EMDR therapy but haven't done EMDR yet

    I just started seeing her. I've been with my old T for a few years. It took me 3 years to start trusting her... I don't think she took me seriously either, but at least I could talk to her and tell her something. Though saying these things is impossible for me. I'm scared they'll think it's just...
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    Started EMDR therapy but haven't done EMDR yet

    Hey, back the t-rex up! I didn't mean is it dangerous to cut, obvs I know it is! I just meant can I leave it like that, will it heal at some point, or is it vital for me to see someone about it? Usually cuts heal by themselves, but I cut layers of skin off so I'm not sure whether I should just...
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    Started EMDR therapy but haven't done EMDR yet

    Thanks for all of your replies! @EveHarrington she didn't teach me any coping tools. Do you have some good ones? @Charbella it does worry me that I'm so unstable and feeling so depressed and suicidal all the time. But they all seem to think it'd be best for me to start EMDR. It's very hard...
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    Started EMDR therapy but haven't done EMDR yet

    Hey My parents wanted me to do EMDR since I've been in therapy for 3 years and I've only gone worse (I'm 19, still living at home) I'm really scared to start EMDR especially since I had to stop with my therapist because they say I can't have two therapists at the same time. I'm doing very bad...
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    Childhood Am I traumatised?

    Huge, massive problem. I was sexually abused by my brother when I was younger. I thought what we did was weird, and totally disgusting. I took showers to wash my lower body after every time we did it. But I never thought it was wrong. I never thought of it... I have no clue how old I was when...
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    A trauma diary of some messed up teen

    (Lonely - Justin Bieber) Hi Well... How else am I supposed to start my trauma diary? Most people start their diaries at the beginning of their story. I’m starting mine at the end. Or in the middle, if you’re an optimist and believe in the power of forgiveness. Most people also don't just quit...
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    I'm Fine

    Oh, I geddit. Thank you for explaining how this website works. Nope, this isn't a piece of fiction, but a trauma diary sounds like what I'm looking for. Thanks @joeylittle !
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    I'm Fine

    Hi. I'm new. Never done this before. Lotsa questions, lotsa thoughts to sort out, lotsa #ICAN'TDOTHIS!!! But first: get aaaallll the feelings out. Sort through my writings, and post whatever could be helpful. I really admire y'all for doing this. For being open with each other. For supporting...
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    I'm Fine

    "It's raining. And you're in a bad mood." remarks Sarah, my therapist. "What an astute observation," I think sarcastically. But I don't say it. Because today, I'm not talking. It's not like I made a conscious decision. I just walked into her office, and the sight of her office just... I don't...
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