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    Does Your Body Shake When You Talk About Trauma?

    Last night my body was shaking as I was talking to my Mom about my father, and the SA that's he's done to me when I was a child. I didn't want to tell her about the shakes, because she's stressing out a lot as it is. Does your body shake when you talk about trauma? This is the first time it's...
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    Dom Violence I still have guilt and shame over sexual assault

    I noticed nobody really responded to my thread. =\
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    What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

    Earlier I was feeling pretty down and crying, but I'm feeling a lot better now.
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    Are You Pushing Yourself?

    In the past yes, I will say I was trying to push myself harder on the symptoms that I was going through and try to push the process to heal. Now though, I'm focusing more on self-care and trying to take it easy. The more I tried to push myself, the more exhausted I felt inside. That's what I...
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    Dom Violence I still have guilt and shame over sexual assault

    It still affects me deeply. I'm so glad I'm in therapy and my therapist has been helping. The more I talk with her about it, the I can see how abusive my ex-boyfriend was, but I still have guilt and shame over the SA, there are times when I feel disgusting and I can't look at myself in the...
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    I broke down over the weekend

    This has been long overdue but I thought the need to mention this before I forget. This past weekend I broke down and was sobbing. It was so severe that my body was shaking and I couldn't stop crying. It just kept coming and coming. Things are improving with my therapist, but I can tell...
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    Sleeping half the day after opening up

    Thank you for responding to my thread. I was so confused as to why I was sleeping so much. My parents, we're worried and that it was depressing but I felt so worn out from talking about everything that has happened to me. I can tell I'm improving though and this makes me feel hopeful.
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    Sleeping half the day after opening up

    I've been opening up more to my T about everything. My last session was the other day. Today I slept halfway through the day. It could be because I'm so worn out by everything. My PTSD symptoms are getting better. This is something I'm noticing the more I open up about what happened to me with...
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    Quote Of The Day

    "When you have a dream, you've got to grab it and never let go." — Carol Burnett
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    What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

    I just want people to accept me for who I am and not just see me as a victim, I don't tell people my business or anything... but I guess my eyes say everything. I don't always smile so sometimes I have to practice in the mirror to smile. I just want people to talk with me and get to know me...
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    How Did You Sleep Last Night?

    Last night I actually slept good and didn't have any nightmares for once. That's a plus! Because I normally have horrible nightmares and wake up sweating.
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    What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

    My dog Ruby. I put on some meditation music and I see how she's so comfy and relaxed by the music. She's honestly the sweetest dog ever! 🥰
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    I Realize That I

    I realized that I'm a very compassionate person. My abuser would claim up and down what a horrible person I was and have me believe these horrible things about myself. Now I'm finally seeing good things about myself. I'm so glad I'm healing in therapy.
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    Deeply Depressed

    Right now things are hard, I'm going to therapy and facing everything, but right now I'm struggling with how I'm feeling. I feel completely numb and sad about everything. At this moment I'm also dealing with grief and it's hard for people to understand. I haven't talked to many of my friends...
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    One Thing That Made You Smile Today?

    Watching The Whitest Kids You Know skits on Youtube. They always put a smile on my face. :)
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    What Are You Looking Forward To?

    I'm looking forward to September, so I can visit my best friend Kristin. 🙂
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    I Realize That I

    The one thing I realized about myself is that I need an emotional and intellectual connection with someone first before I begin to feel anything for someone. When people mention sex to me right off the bat, I feel very uncomfortable about it. I need to have a strong connection with someone first...
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    Relationship Anxiety and Triggers

    I've thought more about the relationship tonight. He's always had a thing for me, my brother killed himself back in 2019. When we got into a relationship, he said he wanted a serious relationship with me, even mentioning me moving in with him. The thing was that stuck out to me, I was crying a...
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    Relationship Anxiety and Triggers

    I tried to start a new relationship. Everything was going great between both of us, he wanted a serious relationship and I wanted the same thing. We we're together for a few months even. I think I may have trusted him too much though because he ended up breaking up with me, and I didn't see this...
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    Last movie or tv series you watched?

    The last TV series I watched was Creepshow on Shudder. I am truly loving this series and glad I decided to check it out.
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    How Did You Sleep Last Night?

    Last night I got decent sleep and had no nightmares. I woke up feeling really refreshed. :)
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    I Realize That I

    I realized that all my symptoms regarding me getting abused was alerting me to leave my abuser, but I still believed everything he said when he said I was crazy and needed help. I used to blame myself for this, but I've come to terms that none of it was my fault and now I know better. To trust...
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    Name all the ways you have started healing

    The one thing I'm proud of myself is not abusing pain pills anymore in order to numb PTSD, and my trauma. I was literally trying to self-medicate myself and in the end I'm glad I stopped and got the help and support I needed from my family. I've come a long way and I'm glad I'm not trying to...
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