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    Later in life crumble... Does anyone else have experience with being functional for so long until your not?

    Yes! Thank you! It's really a circular problem of not being stable with money and housing while trying to manage trauma. You need a base level of stability to handle therapy, and then new traumas can throw curve ball. But you're right, if you did it once, you can do it again!
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    Later in life crumble... Does anyone else have experience with being functional for so long until your not?

    Thank you for your wisdom! It sounds like a full house for you. Crumbly could be a new word for the onset of a major crumble which is what we are all here to learn to avoid. It's so strange how where you are in the worst it and seem to have more together. The idea of matching our coping skills...
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    Later in life crumble... Does anyone else have experience with being functional for so long until your not?

    It does make sense! And thank you for the support. Definitely not easy to change your coping patterns when they've become almost a part of your personality! Preparation is best!
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    Later in life crumble... Does anyone else have experience with being functional for so long until your not?

    Thank you for your response. I'm sorry that you are in a similar place. I think you're right that 40- is a coming-to-a-head place in life. Maybe all the years of auto pilot catch up to us and we get into a serious burn out. I've thought about disability too because C-PTSD feels that...
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    Sufferer Newly awakened to the effects of the trauma I've suffered

    Thank you for sharing your story. That's an unimaginable amount of things to have to deal with and it warms my heart to know that you found a good partner. I've had my share of horrible relationships that mimicked my home life. That cycle is so hard to break and you deserve someone good in your...
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    Sexual Assault PTSD triggered years later

    Terribly sorry about what you are going through but just know that is 100% valid. The hardest lesson I've learned since my diagnosis is to stop looking for other people to understand me. Friends, family, and everyone in between. We do not live in a culture where enough people are trauma informed...
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    Later in life crumble... Does anyone else have experience with being functional for so long until your not?

    Does anyone else have experience with being functional for so long until your not? I'm 40 and it seems like I'm doing worse than I've ever done even though I'm years away from my trauma. I'm not sure if the Pandemic just opened it all up but during that time was I living in an unsafe...
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    Sufferer Trying to get better - Would love to connect to anyone with experience with cults

    Same!! It's hard to find support but this group is definitely a blessing and a testament of how much we all want to heal, we deserve that.
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    Sufferer Trying to get better - Would love to connect to anyone with experience with cults

    Hi, just scrolling here and came across your post. While I don't have a first-hand experience with cults, I do have some friends who were born into one. So glad that you found this group and I wish you the absolute best on your healing journey. I wanted to recommend a couple of books to you from...
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    From the darkness and into the light?

    Thank you for the kind words & feedback! Definitely in therapy. Getting EMDR and such... was looking into psychedelic assisted therapy sessions but is very expensive, like $5,000 expensive at this moment. I've never been in meds which maybe I should reevaluate. My issue is I'm 10 years out of my...
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    From the darkness and into the light?

    Hi y'all! I'm wondering if anyone has any insight into leaving the darkness and getting into the light. After an abusive childhood and losing my sister to sex-trafficking and a horrible drug addiction, I've seen my share of dark tins in this life. I've really lost the ability to care about my...
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    Other Survivor Guilt/Compassion Fatigue: Seeking Advice

    Thank you. I actually did block this person, but I guess I didn't block her boyfriend. She really has no one and I feel terrible because it's not her fault that her trauma broke her mentally. I'm not in a good place mentally. It's definitely a vicious cycle. Thank you. I really respect what you...
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    Other Survivor Guilt/Compassion Fatigue: Seeking Advice

    I'm diagnosed with PTSD from a super abusive home and later, spending years trying to held my younger sister and brother who were addicts. My sister was sex-trafficked and died from drug-related medical conditions. Spent a few years in and out of hospitals, trying to get them into rehabs with no...
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    I am an ex sex worker - facing up to something I've been running away from

    I wish it could be more of a less taboo topic bc the reality is, it's happening, and the sex-trafficking is happening at an alarming rate. People need to be able to talk about their struggles and not feel judged. I wish you the best, and hope that you get everything you want from life ♡♡♡??☀️
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    I am an ex sex worker - facing up to something I've been running away from

    Really sorry to hear about your mother. I can't understand why some are born into these crazy circumstances while others just get a loving family, but regardless, everyone deserves it happiness even if that means we have to work harder than others. The world is a judgmental & cruel place...
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    I am an ex sex worker - facing up to something I've been running away from

    This didn't happen to me but to my sister who was tricked by a guy posing to be a boyfriend but instead pimped her out with another 15-year old. We come from a broken home, usually how you're story goes. He had her on craigslist & stripclubs as a minor. When that was all said and done, she was...
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    History repeating itself

    I agree, access to mental help is sub par without insurance, but you never know who you might find that can be helpful. Even an expensive therapist might not be the best, but you definitely will want to find someone who specializes in your specific issues. An investment in your mental health...
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    History repeating itself

    I was really abused at home and bullied at school too. Felt like I had no one to turn to which led me to being a mess of anxiety and anger all of the time. I think it's best if you get a therapist who can really help you. You won't regret it and honestly, the sooner you do this, the sooner...
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    Sufferer Difficult childhood, abandonment, former gang member, now in recovery

    It's was very difficult and inspiring to read your story. I think you might relate to this book called, A Long Way Gone by Ishmael Beah about a child soldier who had his childhood stolen which is a version what happened to you, hopefully you can remember that when you are feeling down about...
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    Only attraced to people who are abusive?

    That's promising. Good for you that you are able to be attracted to better people. Looking back, I have no love for some of the toxic people I have dated in my past, but I continue to enter into new toxic relationships time and time again. It's nice to hear that who you are attracted to is...
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    Only attraced to people who are abusive?

    perhaps but it's not that they're boring, it's like I have zero desire to be sexual with anyone other than the few people I fond myself attracted to. But hopefully someone nice who I am attracted to will come my way. I tend to not have sex just for the sake of it, I need to be more than just...
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    Only attraced to people who are abusive?

    No, I see them clearly. It's just that I rarely ever find anyone physically attractive, I also was touched my a relative as child, which I think adds to this. I will stay alone for very long periods of time, so by the time I come across a guy I am attracted to, I need to have sex. It's as if I...
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    Only attraced to people who are abusive?

    I grew up in a very verbal, physical, and emotional abusive household. I learned to associate pain with love from a very early age. So far I've fared the best out of my siblings. My sister passed away from a drug addiction and my brother is a career criminal. One of the biggest problems I'm...
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