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    Extreme fear of going to work

    Hello I have had trauma almost all my life but commencing treatment for PTSD with a psychologist, all is going well. However, I have noticed that I always have a fear of going to paid employment. It is fairly recent. There was a security job which was long hours and I didn't have much of a...
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    Health anxiety and constant checking behaviours

    They are already dealing with the health anxiety I just have a lot of fear because I have had people in my life always say oh if you do X then this will happen to you So it's the fear conditioning
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    I'm Not Sure What To Do Or How To Feel

    Yes I have but I have learned acceptance What you are doing is demanding of yourself, I did the same. But remember, healing comes with acceptance. You have PTSD and you are working through it. It's like being rehabilitated from a severe physical injury, it takes time and acceptance. Bit by bit...
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    Health anxiety and constant checking behaviours

    Hello, I have CPTSD As soon as something happens to my mouth or any other part of my body, I immediately assume the worst and/or convince myself that it is something incredibly horrible. For example, at the time of this writing, I have a small ulcer in my mouth (it's very small, most likely...
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    Other Agoraphobia who else has it and how do you feel?

    all the agorphobic thoughts are the same or in a similar vein "Escape" "Holy (bleep)" Your brain is just trying to protect you in that specific situation I do not know your history but in my history I have had a lot of people forcing me to do something against my will so perhaps my brain is...
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    Has Anyone Come Out Of A Controlling Relationship And They Feel Awkward Etc All The Time?

    I am not a psychologist but perhaps you may have some social anxiety disorder. I have this after being exposed to relentless judgement and criticism from abusive people I've found that it is best to accept that some people are jerks but on the whole the majority of humans are good people that...
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    Other Agoraphobia who else has it and how do you feel?

    You can eliminate the panic attacks but the thing is to be slowly doing it. I've come from not leaving the house to going to the local shops and to a bit further because I've constantly been chipping away at it. The thing is your brain is trying to protect you and doesn't care about your life...
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    Other Agoraphobia who else has it and how do you feel?

    Thanks Slow and steady wins the race
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    Other Agoraphobia who else has it and how do you feel?

    yes but avoidance strengthens the fear. i have slowly trained myself to face more situations and have educated that it is all trauma related and nothing that is not fixable. the hardest thing for me is dealing with the thoughts my brain shoves in my head that is 'oh my god im going to f*cking...
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    Other Agoraphobia who else has it and how do you feel?

    Hi I have cPTSD with agoraphobia I can't handle shopping malls when they're busy, can't handle ques, situations where i cannot readily escape... whenever i feel trapped or closed in (avoidance of physical and emotional abuse trauma I know) Has anyone else here got this? And, what have you...
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    Has Anyone Come Out Of A Controlling Relationship And They Feel Awkward Etc All The Time?

    I get what you're saying. I dont have people pleasing but I feel like I am empty inside and I do not know who I am even though I do things I like (such as typing on this forum. Typing is an interest of mine but I do not feel connected to it) My main thing I feel daily is "am I ok? is this...
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    Has Anyone Come Out Of A Controlling Relationship And They Feel Awkward Etc All The Time?

    Hello. I have been surrounded by toxic religion and toxic individuals for most of my life. I made the break from religion in general in 2016 and made the break from the toxic people in concrete terms (fully ignoring them and moving forward) in 2017, this year. In fact, it was my new years...
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    Personal Trauma Diary - Incest Abuse By Brother

    thank you for sharing your story, i was not sexually abused but i was physically and emotionally cannot begin to know what you are suffering from i do hope you can rise above the pain and sorrow
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    Other Ptsd Due To Being Controlled By A Cult

    the cult came down heavy on me when i made a commitment to it, total and complete control but given the link between human behaviour and environment, i have experienced a major reduction in anxiety and defensiveness because i no longer associate with the cult members most of them leave me...
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    Other Ptsd Due To Being Controlled By A Cult

    yes indeed. Weird thing is, when I stopped attending at age 18, the stuff didn't effect me anyway Then again, I was in a normal high school at age 13 - 18 so I guess that offset a lot of the damage that the cult would have done The aim was to homeschool me (one of the cult members advocated...
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    Other Ptsd Due To Being Controlled By A Cult

    OK Forced into it when I was 0 Went out of it on my own accord at age 18 but harrassed by cult members in various ways from 18 until 24 Harrassed by cult members putting material in my letterbox, giving me looks of disdain when I was out and about and I encountered them by chance (minding my...
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    Anxiety Is Killing Me

    Hope you can stabilize and make a recovery even I too have horrid anxiety What works for me is trying to be present and letting go but I cannot imagine what you have been through Sending you some electronic hugs My heart goes out to you
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    5am Wakeup Call

    THanks so much, handy to know As long as I sleep for at least 6 hours, I am fine. And as long as I don't stay up all night unless on purpose Usually does not happen (touch wood) Hope all others can enjoy some sleep
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    5am Wakeup Call

    Hmmmm Sounds like you are in full trauma I do not like social gatherings but they help tire me out Don't mind meeting new people in them too But some days are worse Some days my friends message me and I am so close to telling them to go away in foul language Sometimes they tag me in things...
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    5am Wakeup Call

    YouTube helps me get back to sleep or at least get a good chunk of sleep Once I woke up at like 2am and went on YouTube then fell asleep put the phone away and went back to sleep Just don't like getting woken up at 5am, 7am is ok but 5am makes me feel ehhh
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    5am Wakeup Call

    not to flood you with replies but I think it all has to do with the primitive brain this brain is only concerned with survival and does not care for social norms so probably it views the traumatic nightmare as the same as the event itself and refuses to let you sleep "just in case" maybe but i...
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    5am Wakeup Call

    It is always at like 5am or 7am for me unless I tire myself out a lot Perhaps it has to do with the sleep cycle Apparently you are your most alert at sunrise or thereabouts Perhaps my brain is in PTSD mode saying "To address what is ahead, I must wake thee up early" Maybe... It stopped for me...
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    5am Wakeup Call

    Hi, Sometimes I wake up after a bad dream or just fear in general but it is always at 5am or 6-7am It's weird I could go to bed at like 1am but still the 5am wakeup alarm comes, Fear intense dream related to the trauma and then hello im awake anyone else get this weirdness????????? any tips...
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    How To Stop The Bad Dreams

    Positive self talk helps me deal with them. Hey, it's alright to get a 5am wakeup call
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    Other Ptsd Due To Being Controlled By A Cult

    FYI: Went to the doctor before, got a referral to a new psychologist just around the corner (I have agoraphobia) Doctor agrees I may have PTSD but is waiting for diagnosis from new psychologist for confirmation (fair enough, being professional) That cult invades my mind even now, when I...
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