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I'm miserable. I've been in therapy for ever trying to work on myself so I can manage this so called life. In the meantime, my husband doesn't buy into "psych babble bullshit" as he says and doesn't feel the need to pay someone to talk to when he has me. This is beyond infuriating and has only...

During the summer it can be 9:00pm and still not dark. Now, it'll be around 415pm. Just around the time I'm heading home. It's depressing, I wake up and the first thing that comes to my mind- I can't wait to go back to bed. I don't sleep much either. Random question but those who have DID- does...

My husband and I can never had a conversation when conflicts arise. The reasons being- When the talking begins, it always starts with him. He has a different communication style and wants to talk about it and solve it. I'm the opposite: I can't process information quickly and definitely don't...

Deep depression means we are exhausted from everything, body aches, migraines, easily triggered by just about everything leading to carry on a lot of anger. Then add DID and Borderline and every other dx. I'm surrounded by people around us who view mental health as something that will just go...

Today was the first time I went to the place my dog and I hiked pretty much everyday for years. I sat alone in my car and talked to him. I reminded him of all the fun times we had, all the pure love he gave me and I told him it was an honor to be his mom. Maybe some people will relate to the...

It's rare I feel happiness anymore. The pleasure of doing things feels daunting. Instead of my parts being vocal about their thoughts and opinions, it's not worth it and we've shut down knowing no one wants to hear it. We've been through these periods throughout out our entire life. And it's...

Thank you for your thoughtful response. I've had parts all my life, they are my family so some help, while others don't (or at least not in the same way) but it's as if we lead a double secret hidden life. We have coping skills but willfulness must be conquered first.

Thank you, I appreciate your response. Especially helping to remind us that we aren't alone when we feel the opposite.

Something we've struggled alone with most of our lives before we realized DID existed. We just thought everyone thought like us. Now that my t knows of all the parts and is the ONLY one who knows, we have tried to share more but not wanting to only rely on her cause we don't have any friends...

Does anyone go through stages of being highly triggered, irritable, always on guard. After that phase, then become almost mute and numb to everything. Then the circle starts again?

Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way, maybe not. Changes in life that are not avoidable but can be bittersweet right? Depends on ones interpretation. Although difficult, can still be the same person at work, appear normal. Not us. I have 15+ parts, some are much more vocal, vary in age...

We hate when our t takes vacation. There is something deeply programmed into us when it comes to saying bye. Not bye forever but it feels that way too the parts. We have tried talking with the parts, reassure them, and the list goes on. I hate this the most of all my issues. It's sad, and...

I don't have a lot of energy left. What we do have a lot of- pain, frustration, confusion, uncertainty, fear etc. all of the parts are very sad. So sad

I have to vent to someone about it because we feel alone. Based on the last two weeks and how a part was finally able to speak out loud and formulate a sentence to tell our t something. I don't like using the word progress and I'll leave it at that. What I do want to say is how physically and...

I really hope this will make sense. I have been in trauma therapy for a long time. I have many "parts" that exist within (did). And they are all different from each other - some outgoing, some young, some not so nice, one evil, and lost goes on. We like our therapist and she helps us a lot...

Thank you for responding. Everything sounds familiar and I wish they would cooperate more.

I/we have many complex parts within our system. Each one of them having different thoughts, experiences, likes and dislikes. The list goes on so yes, it's a lot to keep up with all of them. The question I have is: does anyone have parts that in times of struggle they immediately start...

For years now, we (did parts) and I have always been convinced we just don't fit into this world and truly feel we're in the wrong one. I know, it sounds like I'm crazy, probably are. Or perhaps it's the overall disappointment I have with how my life turned out. As a kid, you have this fairy...

I'd like to blame the way me and my parts have felt for probably a month on the changing of seasons. We wish it was that simple but nothing is with us. Suicidal ideation has consumed our thoughts all week. It's almost as if some of the parts started feeling this way since since preteen years. I...

I don't really understand what is going on. I can have a "good" day which for (us)(parts) means little to no crying, a tiny bit less affected by our environment, a little more patience and less desire to want to go to bed. But, don't assume every day works the same. The next day can be totally...

I don't necessarily feel better after crying. The parts are not working together and are all feeling different things or snippets of past memories, agitated all in all, overwhelmed. Etc: Trying to be more present during sessions but all that does is make us cry. It's not my t's fault, it's years...

There's so much spinning and spinning around in our head right now that we go numb. Overwhelmed by anything and anyone. I'm convinced the days we cry before work is because my parts don't want to. It's been a struggle lately and I'm trying to do different things to help and cry and cry wishing...

Hi, I've been in therapy for a long time and probably should have been in it a lot sooner. Anyway, "we" as in my other parts have been working from the ground up so to say. From getting diagnosed with did, to learning what parts functions are etc, how to communicate etc etc brings us to about...

Thank you so much. Maybe one day I can help others who just want to know someone is out there even if we don't know each other

I know I have several things to be grateful for: overall health, healthy good kid, animals that I believe love me. But every morning when I wake up the day already feels like a burden. I cry getting ready for work, I cry traveling to work, I cry at work and then come home and continue. I try and...