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    Therapist Away - Abandonment Schemas

    Sickness has always been grounding for me. Maybe your body is trying to distract you from your emotional pain. I hope you feel better soon! @grit with my T, we work hard on the abandonment schema before she leaves and after she returns. While she is gone, my focus is on self care. Like I was...
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    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    I’m seeing my T in person tomorrow. I had a choice. I’m not sure how I feel. I’m not worried about covid in her 10 foot work building office that has two air filters in addition to the building air change over. I’m just nervous about seeing her in person. I got used to the online. There...
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    "Why don't you just stop self injuring?"

    Self harm is the only way for me to stop the anxiety cold in its tracks when it’s really bad and I tried everything else... but afterwards the guilt sets in. So far, my therapist’s response is to encourage me to give compassion to my self harm. It helps. Your T’s response concerns me that...
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    Does anyone else struggle with this

    I don’t mind buying myself a reward if it is small like a Starbucks drink, but the big stuff is very hard for me to approve. (I think that may be more of a budget thing—like do I really NEED it.) It is very difficult for me to allow myself to have extra therapy sessions in times of crisis...
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    Therapist Away - Abandonment Schemas

    Congrats on making it through your first day! I recently made it through one of these and it isn’t easy. Normally, I write her emails whenever I need to, but I worked really hard to only write her once a week while she was away. If you like to paint or craft, I hope that you do that. With...
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    Brushing my teeth is triggering

    Look for the differences. Comparing past trauma experience to present day teeth brushing. Focus on the differences. Think about those differences during the day.
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    I Feel Like I Am in the "Trauma Olympics" With My New Friend

    @DharmaGirl you made me laugh... because I’m starting to find myself in that same situation. Partly, because I end up on both sides of the coin... really trying to find out how to have meaningful relationships in the gray. Where do we find those people?
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    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    Is there anyone out here?
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    Image/memory/flashback?

    My guess is a body memory. I sometimes get phantom pressure on my neck or pressure on or around my shoulders. I’ve had tastes in my mouth. Smells that won’t go away. I might spend all day with this gross man smell stuck up in my nose and just pray it will go away.
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    Support thread for those with weight gain

    When I first got ptsd, I lost 20 lbs due to IBS symptoms. Then, I maintained for a couple of years. Now that the pandemic hit, I’ve become much more sedentary with working from home. I’ve also been much more stuck in my youngest parts who tend to self comfort with food. I’ve gained 10 lbs...
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    Negotiating with therapist

    . Thank you for Sharing this with me. I saw my T again last Wednesday and she helped me realize that I was still a bit stuck in little parts transference. We then did emdr on where these feelings originated. We work a lot on trying to channel my adult self and when I get back in control...
  12. Skywatcher

    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    Why am I not over this by now? I hate it when T leaves for a vacation. I don’t know if this is the usual abandonment crap or maybe it’s the pandemic trigger. I’m happy for her. Just not thrilled for me.
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    Exposure Therapy Advice/ Tips?

    I’m confused. Are you saying, that for you, exposure therapy is doing household tasks and forcing yourself out of bed? I don’t think that is exposure therapy. However, I am struggling with that same thing. The way I am trying to stay afloat, is to do something that HAS to be done right...
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    T forgets things

    It’s hard to know sometimes. See if you can record your sessions. Then you can check and see if you told her what you think you did. You should also ask her about it. If she is forgetting, it could be medical and she may or may not be aware of it. Therapy is truly a profession where memory...
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    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    @Invisible Fire Southern United States (near the gulf). It’s a bit non-ending here. One thing after another. @Changing4Best do you meet with her on the phone or through the window? Will they allow socially distanced outdoor walks?
  16. Skywatcher

    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    I’m getting tired of the pandemic. Anyone out of this mess yet?
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    Negotiating with therapist

    The change would be a small bit of what our original set up was. I think, for me, it would improve the alliance. She believes it has too many anxiety risks for me. Want or need? It’s gray. We don’t fuss and fight the way you all are imagining from my original post. She’s a relational...
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    Negotiating with therapist

    I had my appointment. It was interesting. I read her what I had written. I listed off all the reasons that it was good and necessary when she added the boundary. She calmly explained the reasons again and pointed out that there has been a positive evolution and hopes that I have noticed it...
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    Negotiating with therapist

    I feel as though I have changed. I see the problems that our first set up had caused for both of us. Our current set up works, but it still triggers me because I didn’t get any say in the planning. It became a new trigger of my childhood and traumas where I was either 1. Abandoned or 2...
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    Negotiating with therapist

    My T and I had a rupture close to 2 years ago. We worked through it. Went through a lot of developmental trauma exploration and my Big T’s. I even trust her now. I do believe she cares about me in and out of the therapy room. However, this rupture that changed our original email structure...
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    Own Arousal a trigger?

    I have noticed this pattern 100% with my cycle. It follows to a point that I can tell you what days I’m going to have really bad trauma flashbacks and emotional problems. The anxiety ramp up can also be calmed by physical response to these memories, which then adds to the shame cycle.
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    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    It’s weird, with this format, I actually can communicate in chat. People were never in the room when I came in in the past. I don’t think anyone is hear now, but you never know!
  23. Skywatcher

    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    About to go to work. Hoping my day will zoom by because I’m tired and I want to sleep.
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    The field of psychology and other jobs

    I think being middle aged may also be an issue. It’s possible I’m more interested in a volunteer role, but that stuff scares me, too. I love research and feel like that would be a good area for me, but I can’t concentrate for very long. I have a job and am really good at it. I don’t want to...
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    The field of psychology and other jobs

    My friends call me “the therapist.” I work in a different field, but I’m very relational in my approach. I liked studying psychology, but let’s just say I’d probably be terrible in the field. I lack privacy and boundaries. Do any of you work in the field of psychology? Is it hard to do...
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