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  1. RubyBlue

    Canoe Trip Story-All Invited

    Squinting at the high sun I hastened my pace. My stomach started cramping at least half an hour ago. It can’t be much longer before I come across something anything. The landscape was beautiful, there was no denying that. The river was wide and calm on the edges coating the rocky bottom in...
  2. RubyBlue

    Canoe Trip Story-All Invited

    Just a trickle. That’s all I could hear when I strained. But that trickle was hope. Water. After sitting for what felt like forever waiting for someone of my group to come looking for me, I got fed up and started traipsing through the underbrush again. Sun had fallen fast and all that was left...
  3. RubyBlue

    Canoe Trip Story-All Invited

    This is not what I had in mind for a weekend getaway. Swiping at the bugs and plants digging into my already itching skin, I cursed Hannah. This was her fault, she tricked me. When she invited us to spend a weekend away with her before her wedding I imagined water laced with slices of cucumber...
  4. RubyBlue

    Canoe Trip Story-All Invited

    Please please don’t apologize or bow down to someone who clearly doesn’t know how story mashups go. Your part in the story should not be chastised just because it doesn’t match up to theirs. They were incredibly rude and are the ones who should apologize.
  5. RubyBlue

    Anyone else feel weird on Zoloft? UPDATE: Trying again...

    I don’t really have issues except a little fatigue (which could be a ton of different things cause I’ve always been tired. And I have to make sure to eat something when I take it, otherwise my stomach gets mildly queasy.
  6. RubyBlue

    Why does time make a difference?

    Exactly what @Movingforward10 said, I don’t have anything useful to add other than I understand the conflicting and horrid feelings of someone being totally forgiven by everyone else and you’re still here battling each day.
  7. RubyBlue

    Working On Forgiveness

    I can’t do forgiveness, personally. I’m not sure I would ever want to either. It’s too close to “allowing” for me. Which I know isn’t the point and it’s supposed to be different and helpful and all that but I just don’t feel it.
  8. RubyBlue

    Can empathy be taught?

    I’m just mulling over the why’s of why some people do things to hurt others. I know some of it is re-enacting/reacting to childhood trauma/stressors/gaining control over lives and others. I know some can be related to some sort of mental illness. But another why I’ve heard is the person just...
  9. RubyBlue

    Exercise while on Prazosin

    Thank you!! I’ll get to checking my bp and possibly up salt, I eat like crap as it is so wouldn’t hurt to pay more attention to that. And I have a follow up in a couple weeks and I’ll see about splitting the dose. The ones I have are capsules and I’m not sure how I would split those on my own.
  10. RubyBlue

    Exercise while on Prazosin

    Only 2 mg which seems super low and I take it at night.
  11. RubyBlue

    Exercise while on Prazosin

    I just started prazosin a couple of weeks ago (or a week? Days are running together). Anyway, it makes me extremely dizzy and lightheaded. It works for the nightmares wonderfully, and my pdoc warned me of the side effects since it’s technically a blood pressure med. But I need to get back in...
  12. RubyBlue

    General Not eating anything but...

    Chiming in as a sufferer: I second what @Sweetpea76 said just getting something down is what is important. I have two levels of this, the every day where I have specific cravings for one thing that can go for a couple of weeks and then it switches and I can’t stand the original thing anymore...
  13. RubyBlue

    Childhood Wanting to report abuse

    I’m not sure I understand the question. But all of them. Literally.
  14. RubyBlue

    Childhood Wanting to report abuse

    It’s not as talked about but we are all very aware. Many of us had female abusers.
  15. RubyBlue

    Meet Cute - Tell me the story of how you met your significant other.

    Tell me the story of how you met your significant other. I need some hope that eventually I’ll have someone somehow.
  16. RubyBlue

    Reporting to the police - How do you feel about it now?

    I feel conflicted here. There are moments I really really wish I had, and moments I am thankful I didn’t. I do wish that I had reported as a child. I just don’t know that my situation would have actually improved because at least here in America- CPS doesn’t have the best track record for...
  17. RubyBlue

    What’s the point in therapy?

    He may make different rules for others but he knows my history in detail and knows just drugging myself isn’t going to get the core of anything. It’s frustrating as hell because there are many days I would love to just drug myself and not have to deal with any of it. But he’s right, for me at...
  18. RubyBlue

    Betrayed by my sister

    I apologize, I thought she was asking questions for input.
  19. RubyBlue

    Betrayed by my sister

    Okay babe. Here’s the deal. I have really tried to be patient and understanding because I know how strong and irrational deep anger can be. However I do feel like you are starting to act troll-ish (not calling you one just seems like you are trying to find just the right lines to create...
  20. RubyBlue

    Betrayed by my sister

    Some parents do indeed feel that way without the child ever doing anything to cause it.
  21. RubyBlue

    Betrayed by my sister

    I think in many of those cases the parent has their own issues they haven’t worked on.
  22. RubyBlue

    Betrayed by my sister

    Because he’s their son. Because no matter what he did, they will always love him. Sometimes parents are able to cut off their kids, but it’s not an easy thing to do. That’s your kid. That’s who you spent 20+ years day in and day out raising and loving and learning. He’s facing his natural...
  23. RubyBlue

    Betrayed by my sister

    Those bonds and love are complicated. You can hate the behavior without hating the person. You can learn to have compassion for the reasons things occurred. It doesn’t excuse them, but it’s complicated. I know of parents visiting someone who raped a family member of mine. They both talk to him...
  24. RubyBlue

    Betrayed by my sister

    If this is the only thing in her adult life that has been concerning- I just don’t see it.
  25. RubyBlue

    Betrayed by my sister

    Are there any other examples of possible abuse? I’m really struggling to see this particular circumstance as abusive and I’m very sensitive to things feeling like abuse when they most likely aren’t. But I feel like this is reaching. Can you tell me what exactly the comment was about private...
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