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    Falling Asleep/ Waking With Hallucinations

    So I have ptsd/complex trauma and I hear voices when under stress; but something else has been happening for a long time only now its getting more severe,and more often--while I'm falling asleep I feel people in the room, I know they're there, I wake up in a daze and i see them,every time...
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    My Main Supporter Has Ditched Me (my Sister)

    I guess I'm a little at a loss for how to start this. My older sister, my main cheerleader and supporter these last 4 years, has ditched helping me completely because she just can't handle it anymore. I realize i'm angry sometimes but it's like I just became "the sick person" to her, and not...
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    Is Ptsd Also...

    Is PTSD an attachment disorder as well? and is it borderline personality disorder too?
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    A Secret

    So I've been, somehow, not idolizing but seeing my abuser in like flashbacks where he is good and great and attractive--At first it was in my nightmares until I got on Prazosin, but now I'm....seeing it in reality, like I remember how he used to really believe in me, how we got along (I got...
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    Do I Return To My Psychotherapist Of Ten Years?

    I could really use some help on this one. I was seeing my psychotherapist for ten years, ten years of dealing with how the trauma effected/changed my personality/selfhood/identity, along with underlying bipolar disorder. From the time I hit 20 and my bio father died from drinking (wasn't part...
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    The Magic Of A Ptsd-5-point-scale

    My sister (founder of my support team) works with students with Autism, learning and behavior disabilities and she adapted their 5 point scale to fit my symptoms, their severity, and what they should do for each number I'm at. It was so much easier for me and them to call or text "I'm at a...
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    Something Strange Going On...

    I'm wondering if someone could please tell me what this is: I CONSTANTLY think I hear my little girl crying. Whether she's in the next room, outside playing, or not even home, I think I hear a little girl crying and I usually jump up to check because its so real. Is this some sort of...
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    Twisted Mother

    So I've avoided this topic in my head because I'm afraid of what it will yield. And because it scares me I obviously have to deal with it. My other played a very big role in my trauma--she stood by and let it happen my entire life, from my age of five on, she played the victim when I was older...
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    Sexual Assault Why Am I Not Angry?

    Maybe because I spent my first 24 years hating and despising my abuser and mother that let it all happen my whole life--that I'm no longer angry? How is this so? I have PTSD, dissociative disorder, psychotic delusions/bipolar, amnesia or fugue...So that's a list, a list of what you could call...
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    Sexual Assault Abuser Of Amy Jo

    Scott David Sprague. Location maybe in Wisconsin. Shit pile.
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    Her Keeper (sisterhood)

    My sister doesn't sleep. I want to say are you still afraid--of the night? but she'd kill me if I knew. My sister doesn't sleep. I lay awake imagining the chemicals that flood her brilliant mind, dousing her down to a caged animal that's half-beating. My sister doesn't sleep. I wait for dawn to...
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    Sex Or Even Touch=mental/physical Shut Down

    So, embarrassingly enough, in my twenties I slept around. I was a numb shell of a person (PTSD had started slowly then) who couldn't get enough sex. Yet every time I had sex, I felt nothing but this edging away from myself. Well, I grew out of that and met a wonderful man, only I wasn't doing...
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    Daddy's Game

    I imagine you must've shut yourself off somehow--the way you'd eventually teach me to do-- before you entered my room like a king's shadow I hear the scrape of your jeans, your hands hot and big like swings. I'm young so I love you. I do as you say. You blow smoke in my face. Now, here, I slip...
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    Sympathy? Really?

    One of my biggest fears when people are questioning me as to what I have and what it's like is: they're gonna think I want sympathy. Ha! Rambling off the countless labels our docs and therapists give us is merely a way to identify with others and to put it into some sort of category we can all...
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    BPD Personality disorder?

    So I've been wondering for a long time if I have a personality disorder, or if it's PTSD/complex trauma, or both? I fit the criteria to a tee, yet it seems to fit with ptsd as well. I'm doing better than I was, but I still have attachment issues so deep inside me like it'll never be fixed...
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    Personally: Finding Peace And Myself. Socially: A Basketcase

    So my PTSD/complex trauma began brewing eleven years ago and it boiled over two years ago when it most severe and disabling (lost my job, friends, house, fiance, dignity...you know). I spent one year in hell (in and out of hospital, psychosis), and half a year in meditation and discovering...
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    Writing My Way Through

    One of the major factors in my healing thus far is my writing. Writing puts the emotions, memories, and facts on the page--it's not just in your head anymore. My psychiatrist was so thrilled when he found out I was publishing poetry and essays on my PTSD experience in literary and medical...
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    I'm New Here - Child Sexual Abuse

    Hi. New Here. Obviously. I was sexually abused started at the age of five by stepfather, continued for short period, stopped, then again at 16. Glad to be here! This is wonderful!
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    What It Takes: A Personal Essay On Complex Ptsd; About Me

    What It Takes: a personal essay on PTSD What It Takes Be as a bird perched on a frail branch that she feels bending beneath her, still she sings away, all the same, knowing she has wings. -Victor Hugo I used to think that my story was a tragedy. That’s bullshit. My story is about love and our...
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