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    Sickening Trauma And Ptsd Jokes, Ignorance

    I was discussing this with my T yesterday. How this very thing keeps popping up on social media and how unhelpful it is. Also when people use the term flashback flippantly. None who has ever experienced the terror of traum flashback would ever use that word without blood freezing fear.. i will...
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    Why Do I Do This And Feel Nothing?

    Beautiful words Muse .thank you
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    Why Do I Do This And Feel Nothing?

    @Ladyghosthunter awful isn't it. I can't imagine these memories ever disappearing although T says the flashbacks will stop eventually. I just wish i could remember happy things and not the hideous last moments of her .Thank you for sharing it's always good to connect with people who you know...
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    Why Do I Do This And Feel Nothing?

    Wow Bill..... sounds like he should be winning that compassionate Dr of the year award ....unbelievable .so sorry you were on the receiving end of this
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    Why Do I Do This And Feel Nothing?

    Glad i'm not alone ..I'm sure the answers are out there somewhere ;)
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    Anyone Here Loves Ai?

    Yes i guess what would be great is a bot that can ask & answer questions about philosophical ideas contained in stories . It could then develop philosophical thinking and dialogue. Eg if we think about the story The Ugly Duckling it would be great to share ideas with a philosophybot on the...
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    Anyone Here Loves Ai?

    I work when i can with young children in SA townships doing philosophical thinking . I often wish i could leave them with a cleverbot storyteller ...what do you think @otakojome ?
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    Why Do I Do This And Feel Nothing?

    So tonight i snuggled down with husband on sofa to watch a film . At one point in the film the main character gets really agitated and starts to scratch at his arms until they bleed. From this point on the elephant in the room was ignored by myself and husband as we both know that this is my...
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    Why Do I Do This And Feel Nothing?

    Yes that all makes sense. Testing boundaries seeking clarification not just of the trauma event itself but the reasons why and where triggers start. I feel better that this is just not something weird i do. The things i avoid are really the mundane things in life that most people would...
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    Why Do I Do This And Feel Nothing?

    Thank you i accept them with gratitude :)
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    Why Do I Do This And Feel Nothing?

    My diagnosed PTSD is caused by the traumatic death (witnessed) of my dearest friend. To cut a long story short i never believed even in light of all evidence that she would actually die. So now i find myself obsessively watching medical trauma programmes on TV. I can only do this on my own like...
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    New Flashback Experience

    So sorry Muse i didn't receive notification of your response and what an amazingly understanding response it is. It's almost like you are in my head .i haven't been on here much since new years eve when i was very very triggered and anxious and stupidly posted very bad stuff thank goodness for...
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    New Flashback Experience

    Thank you, your reply has me in tears. I finally feel a glimmer of hope from your wisdom. I was genuinely shocked by my diagnosis (although i don't think my husband was ) because i wrongly assumed that it was a thing only vets or victims of really horrific events got. My trauma seemed so small...
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    New Flashback Experience

    Thank you .not sure how to do dms but grateful for any help so yes please .just don't want to let you down by not being good at grounding
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    New Flashback Experience

    Today i had a new experience with flashbacks. I looked up on a shelf at my mother's house where she keeps a beautiful sculpture of a woman in repose i saw that she had added a strip of ivy and festive greenery over it . Out loud i heard myself shout "I don't like that -take it off " several of...
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    Sufferer An Old Friend

    Thank you. Lurking felt like my first few sessions in Therapy where i just couldn't get the words out. I'm learning
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    Why ?

    Thank you WillyKat
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    On A Rocky Road Thanks For Being Here

    I hope so too .this place is good for marble . Best wishes :)
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    Supporter Saying Hi, Husband Just Been Diagnosed

    Just to say after your welcome to me i read your introduction. I am also from East of England .similar age ( i should imagine ) with a 15 yr old (daughter ) isn't that strange ;)
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    Sufferer An Old Friend

    Hi Pegasus71 thank you for your welcome. I have a wonderful supporter in my husband but i worry so much about him. I know how guilty he feels that he has to work away every Monday to Friday. He has been at home for Christmas and i think he is shocked to see how badly i function . I often can't...
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    Why ?

    I'm just trying to remember that gun incident more clearly and i think maybe there was fear but not the terror i was expecting. ..It was more like a kind of relief that finally i had something to be genuinely frightened of and i wasn't. I was resigned to die in the same way that i have in the...
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    Why ?

    Shandemonium your life sounds way more chaotic than mine. I live in a large city .surrounded by countryside and small towns and villages. A place which represented lots of safety and good times until the trauma event. Now i think i resent its safeness, its slow pace ..how can everything stay...
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    Why ?

    I haven't seen my GP in person since the psychologists diagnosis .I'm scared of going to the surgery ..properly scared but i will bring up meds at this weeks session with T .I have valium but feel that and my anxiety meds are not enough and too much all at the same time ( if that makes sense...
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    Why ?

    Thank you. .i always thought it was a nervous thing. My husband often notices it before i do. .It only seems to happen when my brain starts to do weird thinking . I will mention to GP
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    Why ?

    So -fifteen minutes ago i had this positive thought that i could go to a small town where i feel safe. .i don't feel safe in the city ...i was going to buy a small gift for one of my few friends. I even got out of bed and dressed..then i got back in bed to keep warm until husband was ready...
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