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    Grinding my Teeth

    Yep -All my teeth are ground down. It looks like I have baby teeth. When my anxiety is cranked up during the day I will find myself clenching my teeth
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    Anxiety Over Small Things

    Oh and even this is giving me anxiety. Was this a stupid thing to post? Will the answers be "of course every body knows that" Or will the answers be "No something else is wrong with you"
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    Panic and general anxiety is back

    Yep The kicker for me is that when I am not having symptoms I feel like I am a fraud. I should just be able to enjoy feeling human but no I have to torment myself...
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    Anxiety Over Small Things

    I get Anxiety over the smallest things. For example: -Today I received a copy of an appraisal of our house. I already know it appraised for the amount we needed it to however I am reluctant to read the actual report. Not even sure why. Maybe because there would be something in the report I...
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    Can we please discus politics?

    I know this is taboo but can we please discuss politics. Because of the threat I see from trump and supporters I have frequent nightmares where I cannot save my family (I am not taking shots at trump supporters this is how I feel), I am afraid to go out becasue I often see white nationalists in...
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    Trauma and isolation

    This is EXACTLY what I have been experiencing! The isolation is intense. And I know exactly what you mean by the blank stares and suspecting some think you are lying. Much (but not all) of my trauma stems from living on the streets as a teenager. I wish so badly that there were people I could...
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    Alone

    Connected to myself - music. I love a wide range of music but when I am feeling isolated- punk rock. My go to Iggy Pop or Lou Reed b/c they both speak to the freaks and outcasts in society. Oddly they remind me of my past but in a good way. Connected to others - Skiing - It is one of the few...
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    Undiagnosed CPTSD / No experiences like mine or am I in denial

    It is amazing how strong the narrative can be. As I was writing the original post the rational side of me could see it was almost absurd that I would be in doubt. In fact that is just a few highlights of my ordeal.... Thanks for the support!
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    Undiagnosed CPTSD / No experiences like mine or am I in denial

    Thank you! I dont know why but I am needing that validation. Just reading this is making me choke up. Im sure I will still have to fight that negative/doubting voice but this helps.
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    Undiagnosed CPTSD / No experiences like mine or am I in denial

    I have really been struggling with excepting I have cPTSD. For one thing I was the one who first thought to explore the idea as a possible factor in my idiopathic small fiber neuropathy. So I go to a psychologist and he is like "yeah of course you do shall me make another appt?". Though I dont...
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    Dealing with mental health and the call to activism

    Well said! Feeling it was important to do something I tried to engage with local "activists". All they really seemed interested in was congratulating themselves on how woke they are (I probably gave away my political leaning right there). Though I still try to take some direct action my...
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    Alone

    Actually I know they are not stupid...My problem is I expect that to translate to them not being ignorant and I get disappointed. It sure would help if they tried to unserstand how people are different. Not that they should be expected to understand other peoples experiences just know they cant...
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    Alone

    Lately I have become distraught and a little panicked over the realization that nobody will ever really know what I went through. I feel very alone. I don't mean lonely, in fact prefer being alone. It is almost an anxiety that when I am gone I will take with me something that will be forever...
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    Dealing with mental health and the call to activism

    They dont understand your experience so do not take it as pertaining to you in the slightest. I do believe people have the obligation to do what they CAN right now. But it is not your fault if you are unable. However you may be able to educate those around you about your unique situation is...
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    Adrenaline as I am about to fall asleep

    Perhaps that is what is happening but I dont perceive it that way. I fell like a surge of electricity comes over my body.
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    Adrenaline as I am about to fall asleep

    I am curious if others have this experience. I suffer from nueropathy. When it is bad it affects my sleep which in turn worsens the nephropathy and I am in a cycle that is difficult to break. I understandably become very exhausted however even when I become extremely sleepy (these cycle can...
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    Pandemic realities + PTSD: when "everyone is a threat" is true...

    I went to the grocery store the other day (I only go when we absolutely need to restock) I was pretty much ruined for the rest of the day. I had to sit in a dark room for quite awhile trying to decompress. The other Covid related issue I am having is a fear that the country cannot take this...
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    Not an actual diagnosis

    Thanks for this. Perhaps I made an incorrect assumption.
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    Not an actual diagnosis

    I don't Oh I definitely relate to the listed symptoms. It all makes sense but I still have my bouts of doubting or even thinking I am making my symptoms worse by assuming I have PTSD. I am glad to hear you experience the same. I am not sure how easy it is to get in for an assessment. I'll ask...
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    Not an actual diagnosis

    My symptoms have been bad lately - the shutdown has been a struggle. However, every time I experience anxiety, irritability that I would attribute to my CPTSD I get very agitated thinking about it. Like I am a fraud or I am making axcusess or something. I am seeing a LCSW for coping with...
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    Fears about Coronavirus

    I don't have advice but you are not alone. In fact I just now joined this forum as I was searching to connect with others that are struggling. My PTSD stems from , among other things, having lived on the streets. My fears of financial collapse leading to possible homelessness is wearing on me...
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