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    Hypervigilance- is yours degrees of constant?

    I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts. I’m so sorry to hear that.
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    Hypervigilance- is yours degrees of constant?

    I feel nervous all the time. I was triggered badly about 6 weeks ago. And I have felt like a ball of nerves ever since. I have to believe if I do my exercise, watch my self talk, stop my crazy thoughts, use my cbt...I’ll get thru this bought. It feels awful. But can you think of a time you’ve...
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    Death So. I accidentally killed my therapy chicks. ?

    I’m not sure if people need to know your trauma before understanding you? Mine is (nutshell) My mom was suicidal when I was very young and for a long time. My youngest daughter (an adopted dib of 3) became suicidal a while back. They were treated so bad before we got to them. Anyhoo...daughter...
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    I think I’m just starting to realize my trauma

    My support network is primarily the specialists that have treated the kiddos. It’s hard for people to understand our life. Our children were abused beyond belief before they came to us. It’s amazing how you can damage so much in such a short period of time. So between getting my own help and...
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    I think I’m just starting to realize my trauma

    My mother has a personality disorder. When I was young 5-10 she would tell me she would kill herself if I went to my dads for the scheduled custody. I never knew how I would find her when I got back. If there would be blood... I worked on that. And it wasn’t all my mother did. My daughter...
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    A horrible night of sleepless horror. Why?

    Thank you all!!!
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    A horrible night of sleepless horror. Why?

    I have a sleep routine but lately the insomnia has been bad. And I’ve had night terrors ??‍♀️ I generally meditate at night before sleep. That would probably be a good thing to reintegrate into my routine
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    A horrible night of sleepless horror. Why?

    I meant no offense. Actually, that is something my therapist is trying to get me to understand. I didn’t have to fight in a war to have PTSD. It’s hard for me because those are the people in my family, who I know have this. It’s been really hard y’all. I appreciate so much the community I...
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    A horrible night of sleepless horror. Why?

    Thank you. I will. I’m still having trouble just processing everything. My docs finally realizing I had PTSD was amazing for them but I’m still having a hard time with it. I know people who were treated much worse than I was ??‍♀️. And I’m from a military family. So, it may sound silly, but I...
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    A horrible night of sleepless horror. Why?

    I take medicine, but not specifically for sleep. I don’t like feeling I don’t have control over myself. So sleeping pills are off the table. I have tried. I use melatonin I have other meds for my OCD/anxiety. But therapist just brought up Prazozin @LuckiLee. I don’t know a lot about it. I do...
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    Panic attack or heart

    There is so much good advice here!! I don’t know that I can add too much. I can say that not only have I suffered (past) with debilitating panic attacks, I also enjoyed the experience of spontaneous panic attacks. I have literally jumped out of my bed and ran...sometimes I made it to the door...
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    A horrible night of sleepless horror. Why?

    Therapy is crucial. I agree. I have been with good therapists and psychs for a long time now. I am not able to talk to her until Wed.
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    A horrible night of sleepless horror. Why?

    I just really started therapeutically working on my PTSD. So I'm still learning. I've dealt with anxiety and OCD. But this is turning out to be a different ball of wax. I've always had issues sleeping -- insomnia and such. I haven't been sleeping well over the last couple of weeks and I've done...
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    Ugh!!! How do you face the mornings?

    I have my hardest times in the morning. This hasn't always been the case, but I'm am new to PTSD. So my emotions are heightened. I am very unsure of myself and what I'm going through. I have read the cup theory. Although...I don't know how, or if, you can make that block smaller? But for now...
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    I cancelled a night with old friends...

    ' It is.
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    I cancelled a night with old friends...

    You are gonna make me cry. When dealing with my anxiety in the past, we were taught to push through the "walls." But I think PTSD may be different? I don't want to push through this. I want to understand myself and how to make that big block in my "cup" smaller. So, right now, It's hard to...
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    I cancelled a night with old friends...

    I raised myself, essentially. And I watched others to see how you operate around other people. Social norms. And then I grew up and I had to start making my own rules. That's when I first got help. Right now I feel like that young woman again that didn't like hearing what was being told to her...
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    I cancelled a night with old friends...

    My college roomies and I were going to get together for a social distancing happy hour tonight. I cancelled. I feel like I have been inundated with so much information and ah-ha moments, that I don't have the space in my cup for casual conversation with people who know nothing of what I'm...
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    I don't understand and I want to.

    If I'm in the wrong place, forgive me, and direct me somewhere else. I am still new to all this, but I'm trying very hard to respect this group. Because right now, all you people that I don't know, are my biggest support system. I've worked many years in therapy, CBT, EMDR to focus on issues I...
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    What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

    I feel scared. I feel less than. I am sitting here trying to gather the courage to go to the grocery store. Even without the pandemic, it was hard. I'm unsure. I've felt better the last few days. I accepted my PTSD diagnosis. My pdoc did raise my meds a bit. But, I've almost felt happy and...
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    Sufferer Trauma Early In Life - New To PTSD & Could Really Use Some Support, Answers, & Understanding.

    That is EXACTLY the response! You summed it up so much better. LOL Thank you
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    Sufferer Trauma Early In Life - New To PTSD & Could Really Use Some Support, Answers, & Understanding.

    Thank you so much. Just from posting this yesterday, I slept different/better last night and I felt better this morning when I got up. I think it's gonna be baby steps and small degrees of change, but just knowing now that I'm not alone makes so much of a difference.
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