I always make lists. Its like you do everything you should yet..... Holidays havent existed since like middle school
I cant so much respond to what you say very drained but am trying to understand
Will always miss mom. Never really got chance to be with her. And offering i guess. I go between ideation and further. Helpline the people are so sweet and try. so hard. Not sure its helpful enough :/.
Your words are very sweet.
Each day is a new day but feels like torture/hell. Whos to say earth is only place and human is only form. Maybe some belong here and some dont. My biological mom didnt seem to belong here she killed her
To not be here. Im already a ghost and have been a good part of my life. I dont belong in this world and never have. There are other places in universe to be something else that we as humans cant understand. Hiw about you?
Has anyone ever panicked because brain screams/urges to do certain things to end all the pain suffering crap and darkness of life? Along with desperately trying to get help and having it not help or even make things worse? Constant thoughts that break you down to point where panic and you start...
thank you for saying all this. I wish i could say more but so drained and turning whats in brain into sentences is stupidly challenging. Its hard when really nothing else.
Ive tried so hard to get proper support and it just doesnt seem to exist. Things are getting worse and i dont have reasons to keep being here. With covid help is even more impossible and no way will i chance getting 5150d or go to hospital its not an option. I heard from a nurse "friend" a...
programs was trying to get into was 2 week voluntary, more peer crisis place where you stay there and yes length and location matter. Last time i checked local PHP place wasnt taking people.
Yes. Not sure where those places are but yes US. Not accepting referrals, other place is full. Not sure why not accepting. But yes COVID has made things even more impossible. She said another place was accepting referrals that was almost a week ago and havent heard anything but huge issue...
Ive done it twice and yes in very short term at least got some sort of breather but other issues came up. First place i didnt eat whole time was there not a quiet place sleep sucked. Nurse put me in room that locked from outside so i was safe from others ironically state facility really bad...
I cant be 5150d again and thats what they will do. Ive been trying to hold on only for it to be like a mean joke. Holding on is all i do leaves no room to live or do anything else. I cant keep living this way and help doesnt seem to really exist, although ive tried to get and so have others
Im spiraling so far down.
tried to get into respite center after jumping through hoops got dr to fill out form waited 3 weeks to have her tell me place isnt accepting referrals, dr tried another place same story.
i dont even really know how to explain in detail what is going on but im not even...
Wow what an exhausting battle. Im in similar construction next door either move be driven insane or just stop fighting. You must be in CA smoke here is atrocious. I wish you luck!
Physical health issues, lack of sleep, constant thoughts, constant fight trying to actually get help to have it only make shit worse, i dont know so much.. I know things could be worse but i dont function anymore