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  1. Digz

    What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

    Stressed, sad, angry, confused. When memories are bubbling under the surface with my DID what happens is I feel all the emotions first. It can be days, weeks of emotions building, feeling more erratic and I search and search my brain and can't access the cause and then suddenly memories will...
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    DID Accepting a dissociative disorder

    I have been in therapy on and off for over a decade now. It definitely helps over time, even though it's such hard work. My parts work together a lot better than they once ever did and when/if new parts emerge then the process of getting them to feel validated and cooperate seems to be much...
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    DID Accepting a dissociative disorder

    It is very hard, @mylunareclipse you are not alone. It makes sense though that there will be parts of you that are really worried about your relationship with your therapist. You have to get close to a therapist and trust them for the whole process to work, and for people like us that kind...
  4. Digz

    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    Ooo, love Daft Punk too. Get to go watch my 9 year old sing a couple of solos in his school choir today and get an end of year award today. Going to be a proud Mama kind of day, which I need with my physical health getting me down of late. Although will have to dope myself up lots to sit...
  5. Digz

    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    Back in hospital tonight. 4th time in 3 months due to severe endometriosis pain. Very nice doctors and nurses but I am so over it all.
  6. Digz

    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    That sounds tough, so sorry it's so hard for you at the moment. It's hard when you need extra support and your T isn't available. I mostly see my T weekly but I find there are some times when I'm travelling poorly that I need to talk to someone more immediately before our scheduled...
  7. Digz

    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    Anzac biscuits are made with rolled outs, coconut, flour and lots of yummy golden syrup. It depends on how you make them and your taste as to whether they are crunchy or chewy in the middle. I personally love them chewy in the middle.... mmmmm. My hubby and son go mad for them when I make...
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    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    Mmm... sweet treats makes me think about all the yummy goodies with Christmas just around the corner. Our traditional Christmas goodie is homemade rocky road. Mmmmm.... Will be having a good ol' shrimp on the barbie for Christmas in the Land Down Under. 😃 Where are you @Changing4Best ? I...
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    Other Endometriosis

    No, I don't @Rani G . I have just started taking Provera, but I just Googled Zafrilla and it sounds like it could be worth a try. Might have to ask my doc about it. Thanks very much.
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    DID Quote regarding DID and self harm

    I totally agree. I think the prison a tortured mind creates is much worse than physical imprisonment. You can never escape your own mind. I am doing ok today. I have had a few horrible nights this week where suicidal thoughts plagued me. For me these thoughts are unfortunately a sort of...
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    Other Endometriosis

    Thank you @Strangelongtrip . I am glad you have found something that works for you. I have just started on another new form of birth control to see if that helps. Kind of rotating through different things to see if any works and waiting on a specialist appointment. It's nice to know that...
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    DID Accepting a dissociative disorder

    I think DID is such a hard diagnosis to come to terms with. For the most part I have accepted my diagnosis but even now ten years on there are times when I want to pretend it doesn't exist. It's a slow process, accepting it. Be kind to yourself. If you are recognising it at all and trying to...
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    DID Quote regarding DID and self harm

    My T shared a quote a me in relation to dissociative identity - "Unsafe behaviours are a profound outcry against isolation and the terrible, even catastrophic, experience of utter aloneness in their suffering". It is not the only reason for self harm and suicidal thoughts of course, but it was...
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    Other Endometriosis

    I have been suffering badly from endometriosis lately. 3 hospitalisations in 3 months from huge pelvic pain. I read a study recently that said women who were abused as children were something crazy like 75% more likely to have endometriosis. At the moment it is making my mental health so...
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    How far I've come...

    Today I'm not thinking about how many more things I have to overcome or how many more years of therapy and hard work I have still ahead of me. Today, I'm thinking about how far I've come already since I began therapy many years ago and it is a very good feeling. I began therapy about a decade...
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    Childhood Triggered at work

    Yes, unfortunately they did. The student wanted to run out of the classroom and leave the school, so I had to block their way for their own safety as they are quite young and couldn't be allowed to leave the school grounds and so the child hit many many times on the body and then slapped my...
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    Childhood Triggered at work

    Yesterday I had the best therapy breakthrough and was riding on a high. This morning I went to work and was slapped across the face by a student and now I am triggered BIG time. I feel so stressed and shaky tonight and wish I could get back the happy feeling from yesterday. 😞
  18. Digz

    A challenging session - Writing a compassionate letter to myself.

    Oh my gosh! I can't believe it! I had a go at writing my own version of the letter today. I didn't think I would be able to do it and there was lots of anxiety and fear. And although I didn't address all of my negative thoughts about myself I was able to address two significant ones. For...
  19. Digz

    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    That's horrible, sorry to hear that. Covid certainly puts that added level of pressure on everything that's definitely not needed. I hope you're hanging in there.
  20. Digz

    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    Nice to hear from you! 😁 👋
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    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    Sunday morning, Aussie time. 👋 Up early to take my son to swimming lessons. So many jobs to do today but feel like doing none of them. Work avoidance day, I think. 😆
  22. Digz

    therapy three times a week?

    I totally understand this. It doesn't happen so quick with me. I see my T once a week at the moment and I find if I go much longer between sessions then I find it very hard. It's not that he's a total stranger to me, but for me I don't feel convinced he's the same, the rules are the same and...
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    A challenging session - Writing a compassionate letter to myself.

    Thanks, guys. It is definitely one of those hit-you-in-the-guts kind of things. I've had a bit of a cry but still think there's more to come. Sometimes my dissociation cuts off my sadness without me wanting it to. I do feel thankful to be back with my current T. He definitely helps me a lot.
  24. Digz

    A challenging session - Writing a compassionate letter to myself.

    I just had the hardest session with my T yesterday. We started looking at a long-held automatic thought of mine that causes a lot of fear and pain - that people hate me. He asked me about what is underneath that thought, as in what is it about me that makes me feel that way? It was only then...
  25. Digz

    Inside my Mind

    Memory Flood Deep mind Fiery flood Relentlessly raging Perennial pelting River erupting Banks breaking Sandbags SANDBAGS! Piercing present Appalling past Roaring rapids Macheteing memories Retreating run Sandbags! Sandbags? Faking flood Denying danger Avoiding emotion Flooding fading...
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