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  1. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My whole life is going down the drain! I made some really really bad bad decisions and I have no friends! I just want to live by my sister and get the hell out of here!
  2. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    All I want is to get married again! I mean omg! How hard is it to find a relationship??? It’s been 7 years! Seven!!!!! What the hell! I can’t get along with anyone???? No one wants me???? My parents brainwashed me? I mean good GOD!!!!
  3. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    How do you find yourself and be happy when the whole world has told you that you’re a piece of shit??? Oh, I know...you believe it
  4. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I hate being called crazy!!!!! I may not be the smartest person, or the prettiest person, but I was set up and I suffer from severe depression and anxiety because I am a loser that is always alone!
  5. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Depression, anxiety, depression, anxiety, depression, anxiety...it just doesn’t go away. My life is just going in circles and I can’t stop it. Please someone, just rescue me!!! I can’t take it, but I have to because it’s life! I can’t take it anymore. It’s so debilitating
  6. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Because my life repeats itself a lot. Nothing has changed, so my feelings are the same.
  7. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Well, it’s not just one thing. I thought I would have a different life, but I cannot change. I know it seems crazy, but so many bad things have just compiled on me and everything just seems so messed up, I literally feel like my life is closing in on me. I go to therapy I listen to everyone else...
  8. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    It’s not easy making good decisions when you were messed with and you try hard to be nice and seem to come off weird, and you feel awkward and know that you seem so f*cking stupid to the entire world. Because of one relationship and one thing. You just messed up your life and can’t redeem yourself.’
  9. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    They are all on zoom right now, at least where I am at. And barely anyone shows up. I really feel like everything is just so messed up and I can’t make a right decision on anything anymore
  10. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Story of my life at this point. Always is. I try so hard to stay positive and be one sided, but I am a loser. It sucks. I have no friends and it just doesn’t change. I have no real connections to people at all. It sucks. I can’t read minds, I am that oblivious to things. I hate it all.
  11. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is literally closing in on me- I am alone, no friends, far from my family, in a job I don’t like anymore. I am depressed because of my circumstances and I can’t change them. Every decision I make I regret. It just doesn’t end. It isn’t getting better, I am stuck and everything is so...
  12. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Why am I so afraid of being alone? I have no close friends and I blew it. I can’t take this anymore. The pressure on me from him and the evilness in my head just won’t stop. Nothing is helping. I don’t want to be alone anymore.
  13. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    This whole thing has literally ruined my life. I hate being alone but I also hate being desperate. I can’t take people anymore either. I don’t know when they are for real or kidding. Holy shit, this is bad. I think I am becoming a weirdo ass stalker
  14. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I just cannot handle the anxiety anymore. I need something. Please God, even though I know that praying isn’t going to work. I missed the market on all of this. I am not what I thought I was and nothing is working out. My whole life is ruined because I couldn’t move on. Everything is coming to a...
  15. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I keep going through a lot. I just can’t win. It’s devastating to me. Nothing is going right in my life. I just want a normal life.
  16. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Yeah, I just never really thought I was this unlikable by people. It is just so bad. And everyone I know is in a relationship and it is just devastating to me.
  17. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I don’t know why people don’t like me but it hurts. I am basically a loser with no friends and no one likes me. I am waiting for things to open up more so I can get involved in groups. Not sure if that will work or not...probably not. And I am such a home body I probably won’t stick with it.
  18. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    All I can say is everything is a lie. Nothing is getting better. I have no life, no friends, nothing is getting better. My job will never change because I am scared to lose it. I am constantly being dumped by people and the people that I thought were going to help me have not. I don’t even have...
  19. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My whole life is seriously closing in on me. Everything I do is wrong. I am emotionally disturbed after all of this. He set me up and I am failing. I can’t build a better life for myself, I can’t find anyone better. It’s just all bullshit. Therapy isn’t helping. I can’t get back the lost...
  20. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I overshare way too much. I repel people away from me and reject the ones I want. I hate life lol. It’s not fun, no one listens to me, I hate my job but can’t find a better one, school is too expensive, if I buy a house I’ll be broke. I have to have things in order and it just is not working out...
  21. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Find myself, get my shit together mentally. Possibly learn how to meet people that are worth trusting other than my family- if that is even possible. Oh, stop the nightmares, but I am honestly living a nightmare. I’m alone and I hate it. This gives me all the anxiety in the world to be honest.
  22. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    But they aren’t getting better. I am constantly rejected, constantly let down by other people. There is no connection between myself and other people. I hate it to be honest. I used to have so many opportunities and now they’re gone. Things that just came to me. Now, it’s awful. Not like it used...
  23. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My therapist tells me things will get better, but I know it’s just lies. No one likes me. I am lonely and the time I got away from my family i was rejected. I can’t live in the moment because I literally have nothing that I like. Dating is always a disappointment and I’m tired of always being...
  24. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    The thing that sucks is that it just feels so fake. Now that I’m in therapy and I’ve gone into the “real world” I see how messed up my life is. I have no friends. I am lonely and everything is so messed up. My life is a literal mess. I’ve spent so much money on crap. I have over 200 pairs of...
  25. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    But they destroyed my life. They destroyed me and I’m not strong enough to pick myself up. So now, I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life because I can’t figure shit out? I worked so hard for everything I had and it was taken from me. I don’t want to be alone but I don’t get along with...
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