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  1. Cypress

    Are There Any Emotions That You Cannot Handle, Or Struggle With?

    This is me 100%. I have no idea what to do. None of the anger management stuff helps. I've talked about it in therapy forever and its just not better. Maybe more frequent but not better. I also have trouble tolerating joy. I think I just have trouble tolerating any intense emotion, positive or...
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    Therapist says I need higher level of care, but there aren't any options available. How do I start processing trauma in therapy?

    You haven't mentioned this yet, but what is your relationship with your psychiatrist and do they know you want to start processing your trauma on your own while free living in the community? If you've had psychotic episodes while attempting to work on this in the past, you may need to have a...
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    How can I move forward?

    I think the big unspoken issue here is alcohol. Clearly this guy has an alcohol problem. He was probably blackout drunk and doesn't remember groping you and doesn't really believe it. His wife and your husband are acting the way most enablers of alcoholics do. I've been that partner and I know...
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    Childhood obsessive trauma memory loop

    I think that this is what is happening. A different memory started coming back in nightmares and my therapist and I were working on it but then he went on paternity leave and I got stuck with this new one in its place. My stress levels went through the roof and I didn't do the best job of...
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    Constant trigger at home, don't know how to cope

    I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. I have also had trouble with neighbors and I agree it can be very triggering. I still avoid my neighbor as much as I can but one thing I did in therapy that helped was to really comb through how my neighbor was actually very different from the neighbor...
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    Why can't I ever make anything go right?

    Can you email your primary care doc and tell him that your twice daily steroid isn't working? Seems like most practices these days have a portal where you can message someone. As a steroid dependent asthmatic, the doctor will know that you need to be stepped up ASAP. If you have ever been...
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    Just moved in together in paralyzed by fear

    This. I hadn't made that connection before. So true. Thanks @Friday you have helped me move to a place of better mental clarity. Just need to let my stress levels tick down a few notches. Yep.
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    Just moved in together in paralyzed by fear

    I met someone while I was serving overseas last year. We were each other's best support during a truly horrible situation: the operational environment under COVID conditions. We came back together, adopted a couple of bomb-sniffer dogs we served with and started to make a real relationship. I...
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    Childhood obsessive trauma memory loop

    Does anyone else have this? Now that I am no longer dissociating trauma memories. I have one that is a fragment really that is accompanied by absolute terror and it has started playing on a loop several times a day, like a song that gets stuck in your head. I will be sitting and doing something...
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    DID Accepting a dissociative disorder

    The less I dissociate, the more symptomatic I am. I've gone from being a functioning ( well at work anyway) person to having full-blown crippling PTSD. According to my therapist it will get better. I hope so. I think the one thing that has been hardest has been learning to say "I" when I would...
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    reasonable accommodation denied

    I just found out that I can take a year of leave without pay for educational reasons so I think I'm going to do that. Now just need to find something to study.
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    How Did You Sleep Last Night?

    Slept great when I was full on dissociative, now that I'm not, I can't sleep more than an hour or two at a time. Misery!
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    reasonable accommodation denied

    This is what I am afraid of too. Having to retire early or go out on disability. No one I have spoken to has a positive story about how accommodations for PTSD in the workplace end up. I'm still too angry to be discouraged but I am getting there. Hope you are doing ok post "retirement" and...
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    Dissociation and Depression?

    Maybe ask your neurologist for an ambulatory EEG to rule out the seizure angle? I don't know what meds you are on for depression but some can lower the seizure threshold.
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    Triggered by my own toddler

    My kids are young adults now but I was also triggered by them during their childhood and also dissociated and did things that I didn't remember and definitely regret. For me it wasn't so much getting angry and hitting but I would irrationally decide that we were under attack, at risk of imminent...
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    reasonable accommodation denied

    In spite of having chronic PTSD I have always been able to work at a high level. Work has often been my only connection to the outside world and the scaffolding that I hung my life on. Last year I made a bad decision to go work in a war zone to pay for my impending divorce and came back last...
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    Service dog handler lobby

    So has anyone had experience training a SD yourself? I just adopted a newly retired explosive detection K9. She is 7 years old and we served together overseas. She is my best support now that we are finally back home. I had her approved as an ESA in my apartment after a long hard process that...
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    Does anyone find that the mindfulness techniques worsens their PTSD symptoms?

    Not an ashram, I was working there for a few years and did it with my yoga teacher. We also had a pranayama practitioner come to our office once week as part of a wellness campaign and everybody, both Indians and Westerners, really liked it. I think as a stand alone practice it definitely...
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    I Need Help Finding My Voice

    I agree. When it comes to money I would definitely rather give it away than fight about it. Can't bear conflict at all.
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    Does anyone find that the mindfulness techniques worsens their PTSD symptoms?

    I like pranayama too. I did it when I was living in India. Not sure why it's not as popular as yoga and mindfulness.
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    Ashamed of Angry Texting

    Maybe you just aren't ready for trauma therapy yet. Maybe you need to focus on managing your emotions day-to-day first. DBT can help with this. There are also simpler CBT therapies that can help with the cognitive distortions you are having. I wish you the best.
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    Military Think I am making my PTSD worse

    @Freida I get what you mean that helping others may help myself. Unfortunately I have used this as a way to avoid my own sh*t. Caretaking and one-sided relationships are pretty much the way I have lived my life and in therapy I am trying to learn not to do that. I'm actually now re-thinking my...
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    Childhood Trauma timeline

    I'm sorry to hear your daughter is sick. Hope she will get better soon. Hang in there!
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    Military Getting Back into it Make it Worse?

    I have also worked in operational settings for many years. I came back to a domestic position a couple of years ago so I could start PTSD therapy and it has been 100% worth it even though it is incredibly painful at times. However, I recently took a field assignment for financial reasons and...
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    Ashamed of Angry Texting

    Well I am sorry that I misunderstood. I was also involved in child pornography and I completely understand what it is to be forced to act like you enjoyed it on camera when you were actually terrified. Why do you think it wasn't actually that bad? Because you know what - it was that bad. Every...
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