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@Simply Simon I guess the reason it matters whether they're biological or not is because I'd much prefer to know that the man who raped me from a young age was not related to me. That my mother who knowingly allowed it, really had no maternal connection to me. That my brother who also raped me...

@Simply Simon yes they are still alive - in their early 50's. Thank you for sharing your story. The thing is, I don't know if either of them are my parents - I mean I bear no connection or relation to either of them in anyway. But thinking that I could have been mixed up at birth or something...

I don't know if I'm posting in the correct section so admins pls move if somewhere more suitable. I've always had a feeling of never belonging, low identity and failure to fit in with my family as I child. I was the outcast and the subject of most of their abuse. And by outcast I mean, I am...

@MT Johnny please don't feel embarrassed or ashamed of anything you've shared, especially when you were at a difficult point. Maybe we act out that little child now and again, but not for no good reason - that child deserves to be heard this time. The great thing about having each other on this...

Anyone else had to have treatments for their trauma/abuse injuries? I have had to undergo a number of surgeries to treat intimate problems due to sexual abuse. And it seems like one of the more serious issues is recurring and I'll probably need to go back to the specialist and have more surgery...

I'd say I'm a highly sensitive person, which would give the impression of an introvert. But I don't like the definition of introversion. It just has negative connotations and I can't say that I agree that it's a real characteristic. I've been reading a lot on this lately and 'hsp' seems so much...

Just knowing that someone is there to support you through this with understanding is a lot sometimes. Feeling misunderstood when you're already confused by an overwhelming amount of emotions can be impossible to process. I like that she gave such an open ended response. That in itself is support.

She doesn't do email unfort. I think there are very strict boundaries in her workplace because it's a public service and for confidentiality also. It's just so frustrating. With my last T, when I did manage to speak or to email or text her about something, I would have huge regrets about my...

I generally spend most of the session trying to talk about non-relevant stuff or at times I talk a little about how hard it is to just be there and talk. She just said at the end of a session 2wks back 'you really struggled today didn't you'. And then last wk said she knew I had a lot of...

So every week I'm psyching myself up for therapy. Trying to plan how to be effective and try to talk about things that are important to me right now etc. I feel like I'm lacking structure and never get anything out of therapy. So a whole week goes by and we finally come to that hour. I'm in it...

@braggle just wondering if your Tgave you an explanation as to why they don't see it as part of your ptsd if you yourself see it as more traumatic than a prior trauma that is considered ptsd by them? Looking at the dsm it would be something where the symptoms are still present for greater than...

That sucks! Sorry but it does. Will you be assigned there for much longer? I don't think I could do that - it wouldn't be good for my mental health. No way you can get your own room? Like ask your employer for a single room by yourself and stress that it's for medical reasons?

From what I remember you're in the Ukraine right? And have limited resources as to safe places to live even? Do you share a bedroom with this colleague or is it an apartment share? I would go to my own room and just tell that colleague you have things to do - which you do of course so that's...

I try to be as honest as I can for the most part. But when it comes to my history, that's different. And I don't think that makes you a bad person. I used to feel bad for it. Heck I had a baby with my partner, had him meet my old family and not tell him any of it until years after. My T told me...

I agree with the others. Just because you didn't manage to progress much with this T, doesn't make it your fault. Nor does it mean you're not able for therapy. I know myself I cannot work with someone like that. My new T has been using a new attachment model with me (all about the careseeker...

Wow I'm so sorry @missyj31. But you do have rights. You're going through the legal processes and I am sure they will be able to tell you where you stand. Don't let their father bully you and try to take control. This is not your fault. You haven't failed your children. Please don't blame...

Welcome @Adorraj and sorry to hear you're going through the same type of things. Have you gone to the introduction section or thought about starting a trauma diary yet? Look forward to getting to know you more :-)

From my own personal experience - hormones do horrible things to any woman - ptsd or not. During my pregnancy I was the happiest ever though - suppose it suited me. But postnatally my hormones went so out of whack that I actually lost it for over a year, actually until I quit breastfeeding. I...

Wow, am I your wife!? I'm sorry you're going through this. I don't know what to say. I know a lot of ppl will say this isn't her ptsd but this is ptsd for me at times. I push my most loved ones away and sabotage the good things in my life. And I just can't seem to control it if I'm going...

I think psychiatrists are sometimes so long out of the medical field they don't want to give you the wrong answer when it comes to physical symptoms. When I quit my meds cold turkey I got really bad flank pain and read online that it was probably my adrenal glands as it's a common withdrawal...

I've been meaning to start journaling, but kept getting put off because I tend to write a lot of things down that I find difficult to talk about in therapy and figured all I'd write would be negative. So this suggestion really helps. Thanks for sharing.

Does he know the full context of your ptsd? If he does then he is being undermining and emotionally abusive. How can he be that selfish as to become jealous of your need to take the time to recover from an intense re-experiencing? Also, does he realise that exposure to triggering materials is...

Actually @Anarchy we only just got a TV after over 5 years without one - figured there would be educational things for our little one as he gets older... But honestly I'm now regretting it as it's losing it's purpose. My partner is also an avid Alan Moore fan. Watchmen unfortunately is too...

@cindymolly maybe I'll just use my toddler as an excuse and stick to watching 'Baby Einstein'! Lol Not that I even care that much for TV at all.

Thanks for the supportive replies. It's helping me to see that yet again I have been far too easygoing with respect to setting my own boundaries and limits. I never ever watch horrors - I just can't even handle the thought of them. Thrillers rarely, depending on the specific nature. My go to is...