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Hi everyone. Thank you all for your compassion and understanding right now. It is healing to know that others will reach out and offer support when it is so needed. You truly are amazing people. Freida, I am not in Therapy at the moment as the NHS could only offer me 10 sessions. I am awaiting...

Hi everyone, I have come to you here because I am feeling so overwhelmed at the moment and writing helps to soothe me. My lovely mum has been told she only has 6-9 months to live and is dying from cancer which, up until 3 weeks ago, we knew nothing about. The shock of this is terrible for all...

Hi, I have been away for a while working on recovery with a therapist. Therapy has now ended after 10 weeks but I know I need more, indeed my therapist has asked me to re refer myself for more CBT.She has helped me so much but I desperately want to return to my original job role, however this is...

My belief system always tells me that I am not good enough. I am working hard to convince myself that this is not true and am having some success with the help of CBT Therapist, but some days I find it almost impossible not to beat myself up over everything that I consider to be negative. It is...

I have returned to work but am not able to work with my original team for the time being as it is deemed too harmful to my mental health. Whilst I know this is the correct thing to do, to have a complete break from the area of work that is triggering me, it is still very difficult for me as I...

Thank you and I have looked at the "mood mapping" which really does make sense. Some days the pain is not so intense just a vague ache in my heart but other days it is so intense I feel terrible sadness and loneliness. I have worked out that if I distract myself over several days, the pain is...

I think both to a degree? I always find it difficult to identify what I am feeling, or if I do identify them, then I try to supress it and distract myself with doing something else. I am not sure why I do this? I think it may be linked to how I was brought up, to not show my emotions, or always...

It is very difficult to get to the bottom of the pain and sadness in my heart, and I have tried so hard. People tell me just to allow myself to feel it but I cant seem to do this? I dont know how and when I try I become frustrated and angry with myself for failing to find what is hurting. I have...

I am here and I hear your fear and loneliness. It too struggle with taking care of myself and trying not to feel guilty so I understand how difficult this can be. But when I have had the courage to "test out" the theory or distortion that otheres will rejet me or think me selfish, it has always...

All the amazing supportive people on this forum and for all those who care about me and are helping me...

I would like a big hug in my Christmas stocking.... xx

Some time alone to reflect, away from all the enforced "happiness" and pretence of a materialistic Christmas. To think about everyone who is feeling sad at this time and wish them peace.

I have decided to work in a different area for a short while whilst I work on recovery of my PTSD. I do want to go back to my area of work as I love it and feel that I do make a difference but I understand that I cant at the moment and that this would not be good for my mental health and...

Thank you for your replies. They are all really helpful and make a great deal of sense. I have decided to work in another area as a temporary thing with a very gradual return to my original area of work.This not something I want to do but realise I have too in order to cope. You are all correct...

Hi I am working in the NHS in the same area that is related very much to my original trauma. Not the same place, or people but the same area of practice. This is through personal choice as I feel that I have a great deal to offer having been through the same experiences as the clients I work...

I have always been an emotional person but never showed them. Always kept them tightly to myself and showed a happy, strong person on the outside. Find it really hard to show my emotions except now I cant control them? They are so sudden and overwhelm me and it scares me....

Yes, I understand, I am just worried about "letting" myself get back out there in the real world having to deal with everyone elses problems Also especially when I am not yet dealing with my own. I am scared that I wont be able to cope and everything will come falling down like a few weeks ago...

I have been "protected" from any upset during the last month whilst I have been off work but I am due back soon and feeling very up and down with emotions still. I can be watching the news and feel a great need to cry, or even just reading something or listening to music and I have a huge wave...

Hi Iriseen, thank you for your reply. I am googling lots of self help workbooks to try and help myself while I am waiting. I have found a couple by Leeds Community Mental Health trust on coping with emotions/avoidance/anxiety which look good and have printed them off. Also a booklet on self...

Finding it tough again today waiting for treatment. Feeling desperate for help and its so frustrating knowing that I will be going back to work soon even though nothing has changed apart from my antidepressants, which are working now after 4 weeks and my mood has come up to a 4 out of 10 which...

Thank you all for your replies. There are some helpful suggestions here, I may get those books you suggested. Chem lady, unfortunately, we have to wait for treatment on the NHS. CBT is very popular at the moment and the new IAPT system wants fast brief interventions of about 6 sessions which...

I have been assessed by telephone and have been offered CBT for PTSD which is good, but there is a long wait for treatment, and although I have been made a priority, I still may have to wait 2 months. I am starting to really struggle with emotions and deep sadness and feeling desperate for...

Hi, after 2 really good, positive days of feeling almost "normal"after discussion with my manager regarding work, I have woken up feeling really fearful and vulnerable once again. I dont know what has triggered this feeling? I have been trying to make some decisions regarding my work situation...

Been busy trying to get some help. Now on priority waiting list for CBT so hopefully this will be before 10 weeks! I am going stir crazy, have spoken with my manager. She is really lovely and very helpful. Doesn't want me to return to work before Christmas, but we shall see. I have made the...

Thank you all for your kind words. I will try some of these ideas. I have started a little book where I am putting quotes that are positive and uplifting, also photos of my family looking healthy and happy. I aim to have this in my bag at work so can pull it out when I start to feel triggered. I...