Inner child feels so much vulnerability, pain and sadness today about not belonging or being accepted by my famoly of origin. That kind of rejection is not easy to bear.
So I will be kind and comforting to my inner child- I accept you for who you are. I love you, unconditionally, for who you are.
I am getting started with a new therapist. She asked me what coping skills I use, and I realized that currently I just tend to distract myself- that's really all that I am doing to "deal" with stress. But it doesn't really work to relieve my stress - it just temporarily distracts me and keeps...
@lovak Is it relatable? Absolutely, as you can see from this thread. What you are describing is spot on to an experience I have been going through as well- unable to care for myself. I was usually able to pull it together so to speak for work, just keep it together for those hours, and just be...
My thoughts go out to anyone else struggling with mothers day today. I know I'm not the only one.
I am grieving.. never had a healthy relationship with my mom. She was always disapproving and emotionally distant, and I never felt loved. She did not protect me from abuse I was going through as...
The grief comes in waves. Sometimes the intensity of loss are almost unbearable. I don't miss my family, but I long for what I wish they were, what they could have been: supportive, accepting, respectful, loving.
That longing is what kept me going back to them even though they made me...
This is Finnigan Seamus Owen O'Malley Honey Bun.. or Finn for short.
Alley cat that we found hiding in our neighbors garage and they said they "hate cats" so we took him in.
He's an energetic, chatty, playful, sweet lil boy.
The purpose of my life right now is to focus less on a higher purpose and more on getting to know myself, my likes and dislikes, and doing more of what I like.
I used to think my purpose in life was to help others, but now I think it is the journey of healing and loving myself.
24 years is a wonderfully long life! And Im sure she felt completely content and loved with you during those years.
It's been a very special process to see her start to feel safe and trust us. Our connections with our animal companions are so sacred and healing
I was working on a covid unit during the first few months of the pandemic. It was both a blessing and a curse.
Being able to get out of my apartment, focus on my work, and connect with people was a necessity that I was thankful for because it kept me sane.
But the stress and not having adequate...
I let my managers know I'm taking a personal day tomorrow for mental health, which I really do need.
Afterward, I felt completely anxious and guilty. But I am choosing to reframe this as a positive step as I make choices to take care of myself.
I had a really stressful and triggering week last...
Grateful that it's Friday, and I have the weekend off work.
Grateful for my partner being cute this morning and making my heart melt with her sweetness.
Grateful for this warm, delicious bowl of farina for breakfast.
Grateful I dont have to wear scrubs to work on Fridays!
I hate paps. I had an anxiety attack after my last one, which I put off for so long.
But I got a really good provider who is trauma informed and let me handle the speculum myself, took extra time to check in with me, explain everything.
It makes a world of difference to find someone who you...
The exercise thing helps. On days I have biked to and from work, I am ready to sleep and sleep well- not the constant waking up, tossing and turning that I do otherwise.
This past week I did not bike to work- and I have noticed more fight/flight dreams. I think I am also in some emotional...