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  1. fern

    Coping skills

    I am getting started with a new therapist. She asked me what coping skills I use, and I realized that currently I just tend to distract myself- that's really all that I am doing to "deal" with stress. But it doesn't really work to relieve my stress - it just temporarily distracts me and keeps...
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    Mothers day

    My thoughts go out to anyone else struggling with mothers day today. I know I'm not the only one. I am grieving.. never had a healthy relationship with my mom. She was always disapproving and emotionally distant, and I never felt loved. She did not protect me from abuse I was going through as...
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    Taking A Mental Health Day

    I let my managers know I'm taking a personal day tomorrow for mental health, which I really do need. Afterward, I felt completely anxious and guilty. But I am choosing to reframe this as a positive step as I make choices to take care of myself. I had a really stressful and triggering week last...
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    Freeze Response (Dissociative Defense)

    So I'm coming to understand that a large part of my behaviors are not actually my real personality but are ptsd effects.. oof ? I'm reading about the 4 F responses to trauma (fight/flight/freeze/fawn, Pete Walker) and I am primarily freeze, which, go figure, explains a lot of the dissociation...
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    New Job

    I'm starting online orientation tomorrow for my new job in an organization that's been my goal to work at for a couple years. The first 2 times I applied it didn't work out, but this time I was applying again after losing my job during the pandemic. This time they were impressed enough to...
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    Dreams in Trauma Locations

    I have recurring dreams that I am back in the city / locations I was in when trauma took place. Almost every night for the past few months. Some nights it's not necessarily bad, just roaming the streets. Some nights are worse, and I dream of fighting off rapists/people trying to assault me, or...
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    Distrust

    I've been experiencing waves of intrusive thoughts and beliefs that I cannot trust people in my life. These thoughts range from mild to severe (when I am really triggered) And while they pass over like waves and do not last, they do keep coming back. I know it has to do with my trauma having...
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    paranoia, paranoia

    Hi, first post here. I found this forum when I was seeking help during what was the worst ptsd related panic attack I had in a couple years (a few days ago and still recovering). I'm seeking some advice and shared experience from people who also deal with paranoia, specifically in the form of...
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