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    Other today and my son and triggered

    Well my son, who is 19 almost 20, has been in school for AMT. He is also been on prozac, busiprone and trazodone. His bio-father is bi-polar. I used to always try to fix his father, when he would quit taking his meds and get his meds refilled, getting him into the therapist, the psychiatrist...
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    Crying and having hard time stopping.

    Thank you for that. I was just sitting here worried people would judge me after I said all that. My ex was bi-polar and angry a lot. I can see he was manipulative now. I met him when I was 18 in 1984 and the abuse came out in 2003. I do try to tell myself I'm not to blame, but it's hard. I...
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    Crying and having hard time stopping.

    I feel so guilty for what I feel like is helping my ex (kids' father) rape my daughter. Not intentionally, but if would be angry, I would say "why don't you go out and talk to your dad" when he was out in the shed or something. Cause they seemed to get along and in reality he raped her. How...
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    Memory flashes

    I do drink around 67 ounces a day. And I'm sorry my post was so weird I think. I did talk to my therapist this morning and a lot probably can be due to the hormones. I am through most of menopause. But I was having some major flashbacks that weren't easy to handle so they put me on the...
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    Memory flashes

    I went for my mile walk listening to music and all of a sudden I started having memories flash in my mind. Not all bad but not all good either. Remembering my kids grandma on their dads side. All the guys I have been with and not been with. I don't understand why this is happening. I started...
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    Dom Violence random thoughts

    I noticed people have viewed this post but no replies. I'm probably just a crazy person.
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    Other What reasons were you given not to tell?

    I wish I could feel what you feel. I try to pray forgiveness, but it doesn't seem to happen. :(
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    Dom Violence random thoughts

    I have so much on my mind lately, I don't know where to turn or what to do. I just want to get it out of my head and down somewhere. I'm not sure this is the right place for this thread. I just need to ramble a bit. My ex-husband/abuser is getting out of prison on the 18th or 19th of this...
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    Hurt so bad & depressed. Don't know what to do?

    @whiteraven thanks for responding. Yes, I have been diagnosed with PTSD and I'm not sure what else. I was first diagnosed with depression in 2001 after my son was born and it was ppd then. I've been trying to decide on a therapist since my insurance changed in January. I hadn't seen my previous...
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    Hurt so bad & depressed. Don't know what to do?

    I don't know what to do. I feel kind of down &/or blah. I was told by my primary dr. that my labs came back that I am post menopausal. That doesn't bother me other than wonder if it's causing some of my problems. I quit taking topamax because it didn't seem to help my mood, but also helps...
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    Frustrated dont know what to do

    @bellbird flashbacks do suck. I am having a tough time shaking the thought of it. I haven't had any quite a while I guess because of medication and never this strong. And was just a vision of a bedroom where I lived no one in there just a room. I think emdr would be good. I never heard of the...
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    Frustrated dont know what to do

    I am a survivor of many years of mental abuse of a man I lived with/father of my 3 children, since I was 18. He went to jail in 2004, for sexually abusing my 2 daughters. Biologically they are his children too, but i say they are mine, because he doesn't deserve them. I had a flashback last...
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    Abilify and feeling sleepy

    @joeylittle thank you, I appreciate it. I don't say much, but I get on here and check out things some. You've always been helpful and informative. I just get so tired of this battle. Been on medication 18 years and that's probably not long compared to some, but I want to "get well" or as...
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    Abilify and feeling sleepy

    @joeylittle She had told me if I get sleepy to take it at night, which I am now. But I'm noticing I'm more short-tempered with this. Have you had experience with this medication or has anyone else? I know on some meds they say to go up it helps. She told me at 8 days take 1/2 of .5 and then...
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    Abilify and feeling sleepy

    The psych doc just added Abilify to my Effexor and I took it after I picked it up at 11 and I'm getting really sleepy now at 1:30 pm. Is that normal. It says it can, and the doc said maybe but at a low dose she didn't think it would. When I google it everyone talks about how it kept them up...
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    Parenting

    Wow, I haven't been on this site as much as I probably should have been seeing all these posts. I have an almost 6 year old granddaughter that we just got guardianship of who is wanting attention so badly. She never got a lot form her mom, but I have a hard time with her just hugging on me...
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    What Drugs Are You Taking For Depression ?

    I'm on effexor and topamax and busiprone. I mainly take it to help me sleep. Trying to get p doc to prescribe something else to add to effexor. No energy to do much and when I do have a bit of excess anxiety, I take 10 mg. of busiprone and I really struggle to do anything..it's like blah. I...
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    Effexor and not feeling sad when you are supposed to

    @Deanna's Gap what do you take with it?
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    Effexor and not feeling sad when you are supposed to

    They just upped my medication, due to being extremely down and stressed. Now, though I think I should be more emotional in a good way to speak or it would be "normal" to be sad about my son graduating high school as he is my youngest. But I'm not feeling much of anything about it. Is this...
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    Meds worked but then they stopped. Is this unusual?

    Well, I think I'm feeling better mostly. Now this week is the week of graduation for my youngest from high school. I was getting kind of weepy about it before, but now I hate this but I don't feel anything. I'm not sure I like that right now. I should feel something. I was feeling pretty...
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    Meds worked but then they stopped. Is this unusual?

    I was thinking this morning, maybe I jumped the gun and should have tried more self care as you call it waiting it out as I usually do first before adding more medication. I don't usually jumped to adding more medication. I hadn't seen an pdoc in over a year this time and it had been longer...
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    Meds worked but then they stopped. Is this unusual?

    (moderator moved from this thread) @bellbird I just went up this morning to 300 mg. I was on 150 mg. for over a year, but I hadn't seen a psychiatrist or a therapist in that time either. I saw new T last week thought I was doing pretty good. The new psychiatrist about a month before new T...
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    Trauma therapy is exhausting. But I'm doing it because I want.... (fill in the blank)

    To be happy, not numb most of the time from medication. I would like to get off a lot of the medication. I don't know if I can get off all of it, but most I hope. Not feel like I'm a fake and to just generally feel better about myself and be a happier person to be around instead of being angry...
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    Sexual Assault Flashback i think???

    It sure was a scary feeling and I think I freaked my daughter out too. :(
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    Sexual Assault Flashback i think???

    I don't know if it was a flashback or what happened. But I am a mother of an adult now, but my oldest and youngest daughter but mostly oldest was sexually abused by their bio father. I was molested when I was 11 years old and my mother did nothing about it. Covered it up, so to speak. Then...
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