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    suddenly getting nightmares nightly

    Hey. Ever since this pandemic started and i had to move back into my dad's house (from university) about a month ago, I've been having nightmares every night. Emotionally, I've been feeling pretty okay. I've been getting 8 hrs of sleep a night, if not more, drinking water, exercising, eating...
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    feeling so isolated with my core beliefs

    i'm in a really bad place right now, still a few weeks away from getting into therapy. until then, i feel like im stuck with what ive been taught. i feel so lost, like id gladly go back to being abused if it meant i didnt have to figure any of this out on my own. there's one thing that has...
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    recovering sexually

    i recently opened up to my partner about how my trauma is beginning to resurface, and i asked if we could put a pause on any sexual activities because i dont trust my ability to properly consent. my partner was extremely understanding, but there's still that nagging fear that there's only "so...
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    even consensual sex gives me flashbacks?

    Hello, just looking for some opinions here, or any empathy if people can relate. I had sex with my partner a while back, and it was completely enjoyable and consensual, negotiated, etc. But now, every time I so much as think about it, I get flashbacks that feel just as distressing as the...
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    Other Something Happened Today - Accosted By Homeless Man /vent/

    After my therapy appointment, I was at the bus stop in the dark. I'm already paranoid that someone will bother or harass me if I'm by myself, and today that came true and really set me back a bit. I feel bad being so shaken up by this, because it isn't nearly as bad as most things that have...
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    Another shame talk

    I know shame has been mentioned in probably every possible way on this site, but I wanted to express my own difficulties with it. No matter how hard I scrutinize my experience, I still don't feel like I deserve to call myself an abuse survivor. I was never touched, I was never raped or...
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    My experience & chronic shame

    Alright. I've decided to start trying to write about what I'm feeling instead of bottling it all up, because I'm in a vicious cycle right now and I feel so discouraged because I was doing much better before (or maybe I wasnt, but the fact that I wasnt seeing a therapist let me ignore all of...
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    feeling desperate for positive touch

    Currently, I'm sort of "dating" this guy I know. I feel so desperate for positive touch that I cant tell whether or not I'm getting into it for the right reason... Sometimes we're sitting next to each other, our arms brush, and I feel like I could explode from the longing I have for love and...
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