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    Need to vent frustration

    I'm furious. First, you must survive the hell of trauma and hell all they did to you break your soul and spirit and humanity. Then find out that the society you live in will retraum you every time you manage to get your head above water to breathe. When you think you are healing and on your way...
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    Despair

    Not sure what to post this under so correct me if Ive posted under wrong category.... Yeah so I think I just broke my soul today. Reached a new level of being total bunkers mad crazy bitch did I too. Been fighting so hard to make a difference to my self. So I guess I vunerable. Also cause I...
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    Group dynamic and being frozen out

    Went to a cabin trip with 6 people this weekend. On return home a person had uploaded photos from the cabin trip. There was nice photos of group enjoying themselves as a group. In the sofa and by the dinner table. Later others also added their photos from this cabin stay. What was wrong with the...
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    Love & christmas

    Many of us dont have a good relationship to christmas. Last two times I where with family was like - next last time drunk mother killed the christmas tree and the very last time I needed to get so drugged full of morphin to survive being with them that I wasnt really there anyway. Now I got...
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    Why yes is yes, but its actually not (many times)

    There is this internacional campaign called only yes is yes and it really ticks me of. Cant really find my arguments for those that think that its so simplistic that a yes is a absolute conscent. Can you guys help me out? For me Im thinking that a yes its not a yes in all cases cause of...
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    Children from unloving families

    In society there is organisations and groups for seemingly everything and every issue. For ex drug addicts. For those that suffers from narsisitic abuse wether from family or partner. There is organisations and groups from those that suffered from incest and other sexual abuse. From alcohol...
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    Is it normal to have reaction?

    I work in kids scholl. Kids can get pretty rough towards eachother when they play. We try to talk with them about it - schools have some programs to teach them social - be - nice to eachother skills, but still... Today it went all wrong as the kids where out to play. A kid strangled another...
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    Smell Triggers

    So I have a room mate and until today he didnt smell anything else but neutral. I came home and now he put on perfume. And not just any but the worst kind that triggers me and reminds me of things I dont want to be reminded of. Just trying not to breath to much when we are in the same room and...
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    Accomplishment & Sucess The Past 6 Months

    External sucess that Bloomy has accomplished is - accomplished two schoolcourses and passed examens in both of them. Wonder over all wonders. Its been pretty tough also since both schools had schooldays on the same days. But - Bloomy did it. And Ive applied for jobs. Yesterday I was at...
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    Sexual Assault Consequence Of Rape

    I was raped some few years back. Brutal. No possiblity to police report since he didnt hurt me severly enough to have prove that it was rape and not willing consent sex. I did my best to put this behind me. Been used and abused enough so might sound horrible to other,but sort of came to terms...
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    Bloomy The Common Factor

    So Im seing a new counsler. Not therapist, but counsler. Hoping she can give me support that I need to move on. Met her only three times till now. Last meeting today. I had a lot or loads of bad encounters over the past decades with counslers, diferent therapist, social workers and such...
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    Bloomy Is A Badass

    Ops did I just write that (with my low self confidence) :whistling::ninja::geek: But really Im amazed by my self. Had trainer session with customer today. And yeah its been a long week and Im actually pretty tired. And as many of you here know ive been a lot of up&down&down&up this year...
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    1 Year Membership Of Myptsd Anniversary

    ...or holy crap as someone else here put it :wacky: Ok Im forcasting it :bookworm::whistling: Its in beginin of january, but I just belive its good to start to think of it now and unto then :rolleyes: How has it been for me to be here this first year? Good things, not so good things? Has it...
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    Flashback

    Long time since I had a flashback. Ive downloaded some music for running and then went for a run. On the way home listening to this somewhat old music it hit me. Did "father" listen to while he did the things he did? Flashbacks of smell, distant sight and a faint glimpse of a face I do...
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    Need Support

    Ok so I broke something again. A plate this time. Must be the fourth time this week. Realise that Im on the verge of explosion. Realise that this is not good. Ive stopped self harm some time ago, but seeing al this nice glass on the floor makes it so so tempting to just slize a little bit to...
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    How To Dig Yourself Out Of The Mess And Aftermath Of Trauma

    I dont feel so traumatized anymore. I feel willing and able to move on. Just that I got my self into deep shit I must manage to solve to get a decent life to live. The challenge now is that the goverment of my country is making it more and more difuclt to dig your self out of problems like...
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    Is It Normal To Be So Tired That You Get Paralyzed?

    I just wonder if its normal reaction to be so tired that you are almost paralyzed? Is there anybody that reckognize or understand this? Like today - again - at school. I was just so tired allready early on this morning. Came 2 o clock and I was more or less gone barely holding on to sit on the...
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    Political Action

    This should actually be posted under sucess and accomplishment cause thats what this is. Like most people I prefer to sit warm and safe in my sofa and talk about the politcal clima on facebook. Also Ill add with ptsd and all the after math of it I really have enough struggle my self. But now -...
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    Jingel Bells

    Yeah so daughter confirmed today that she probably will come to me on christmas :geek: Not gonna make it a problem.... But but but but Help :bag::bag::bag::bag: As some of you know I adopted her few years ago and usually she would spend christmas with another extra family. This family will...
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    ED Silly question regarding eating and hunger

    I have some problems eating sufficientlly. Like yesterday there was only small breakfast and evening food. Today Ive tried to compensate, but even do Ive been eating almonds, fish and two eggs Im still feeling like Ive eaten nothing and stomich rumbles. Im a fairly active person. I wonder is...
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    Life With Ptsd

    Cant belive Im doing well enough in school and as mom and normal person on the outside when my inside goes up in gluing and Im a crazy mad bitch - any body else recognize this?
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    Bloomy Ban

    So I was having a seizure and got a banned from here. Learned valuable lessons. Among one need to take care my self. Im not so popular never will be and thats ok. Stop using so much waist of time here and use it more productive elsewhere. Yes Im sad that none has asked for me here during my...
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    How To Make Your Self Unpopular

    Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover...
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    Food As Medicine

    First f all listen to your doctor or similar. If you are on medication or other precaution. This is my personal experience using my self as a trst bunny. After some thread here Ive decided to make a own post here about the important component of the healing journey and at all just be better...
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    So Scared And Alone

    Im really trying my best to be brave. To not predict the future to all gloom and to catastophy thinking that itll all go to hell based upon former experiences. And maybe - just maybe - if I were in this alone I could make it fairly well. But Im not. Im on welfare on workforce program. Today...
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