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  1. KwanYingirl

    When does treatment end

    Yes my daughter has been more and more ignoring me and she can be downright cruel. She told me last autumn that she won’t be speaking to me. She doesn’t speak or text but 3 times she has sent a video of my 14 month old grandson. It’s heartbreaking that she tells me I can have no contact with him...
  2. KwanYingirl

    When does treatment end

    I’ve been in trauma therapy every week for years. I’ve made a lot of progress and lately I get the feeling that my therapist is bored and sick of hearing my questions. We do Telehealth and it’s great for convenience. I just don’t feel a connection. When I talk to my friends about it-friends who...
  3. KwanYingirl

    I had a breakdown and now I need to get over it, how???

    I can identify with everything you’ve said. That stress cup overflows and we’re no Longer grounded. And that’s when the crazies show up. Self doubt, problems with food and sleep, overwhelmed. My condo looks like a hoarder lives here. You know, you deserve a lot of credit for taking on this...
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    Through The Mud And Toward The Sun, The Lotus Blossoms

    Coming in to see who’s doing well and who isn’t. The past year has been such a struggle. My landlord at my office turned into a monster trying to kick me out because someone was using plugins and my brain just went haywire. It took 5 months to resolve the issue. He was the one that told the...
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    Other Wearing a face covering is triggering memories of suffocation and I'm now scared to go to the shops.

    I have a lot in common with you. I’m from the US but I ran away to London after having been strangled. One night at a pub I was drugged and kidnapped. I played dead when I came to in a car and was able to flee. I ran and ran and fell because I was drugged. A nice woman wanted to get me a...
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    This again

    I guess I belong here. My medical providers suck. Seriously, I don’t think my psychiatrist knows a thing about PTSD and it’s first cousin depression with suicidality. Amonthago I was declining. I happened to have my every three month med check with the shrink. I must have said something weird...
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    Two mean women and ones man

    I’m entrenched in a condo with two evil women. Bully’s, attacking me off agenda time at meetings, constant insults, I want out. I live in a sick building where evil people live.they like to harass me any way they can. I am surrounded by morons. Finally got rid of the stalker. She moved...her...
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    Crazy neighbor moved all my porch furniture and then moved her things in

    Her daughter was killed in a motorcycle accident last Saturday. On Monday, she sends me an email demanding that I remove the plants on my porch. Just such proof of her craziness. The woman who bought her condo is very nice and will be a breath of fresh air.
  9. KwanYingirl

    Crazy neighbor moved all my porch furniture and then moved her things in

    Her condo is sold. She hasn’t lived here for three weeks. She drove our board prez crazy with demands to change the By laws so that her unit can be rented to tourists. Then she wanted him to change that all the plumbing in her unit has to be maintained by the association. There is no debate that...
  10. KwanYingirl

    Bioidentical estrogen

    Well, it doesn’t appeal to me. I can’t find that any real research into BHT. People play around with one or more of the female hormones plus testosterone. There’s just no studies that can answer the questions about source of hormones, which ones do what. From what I’ve gleaned is that estrogen...
  11. KwanYingirl

    Bioidentical estrogen

    I take isotonic supplements. Mix with water and drink it. It delivers the vitamins, etc in the small bowel that’s where the action is. When I have money, I buy OPC calcium and magnesium, aloe juice for my airway disease. I have a lousy diet. Looking forward to fresh picked veggies for awhile. I...
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    Bioidentical estrogen

    @VioletButterfly yes I am just researching it. I was a mammo tech for 30 years and the old me is totally against Premarin. It caused so many cancers. Omg it just was awful. But it came from the urine of pregnant mares of all things and I think all those poor women who trusted their docs were...
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    Bioidentical estrogen

    Thanks @Fadeaway i didn’t know that. But if something is bioidentical, doesn’t that mean compounded for each particular persons hormonal balance?
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    Bioidentical estrogen

    Have any of you used bioidentical estrogen to help with menopause symptoms. Mine aggravate my PTSD. The memory lapses, fatigue, etc. I’m 64 and entered menopause at 42. The cost of it in my neck of the woods is $80/month for the cream, not to mention the physician charge because I would have to...
  15. KwanYingirl

    Crazy neighbor moved all my porch furniture and then moved her things in

    I don’t know. The sooner she moves, the better. My at today said it’s her problem not the Associations. Let’s spend our time helping me more able to tolerate discomfort. If I weren’t such a black/white person, I’d be better at tolerating distress. The prez is coming up Thursday and Friday...
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    Crazy neighbor moved all my porch furniture and then moved her things in

    She requested a meeting with the Board members. Remember I’m the Secretary. She put on a voice like a ten year old and started spewing words about how wonderful her life has been here, blah, blah. Then it came to the dog gates:”Prez, you have always been so kind with your dog gate and allow room...
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    Crazy neighbor moved all my porch furniture and then moved her things in

    This has become quite the trail of tears. Now I just get pissed off at her. So she asked to have a meeting with the board right? So that happened today and sure enough, it was a demand to remove the dog crate so that the porch would look more lovely. She made sure to tell the guy in the other...
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    Crazy neighbor moved all my porch furniture and then moved her things in

    Did I ever mention that one of my clients advised me to visualize her packing her car and driving away with a smile on her face. She stressed that I see her going to a better place. I did that 3 times a day for the last 2 weeks. It worked.
  19. KwanYingirl

    Crazy neighbor moved all my porch furniture and then moved her things in

    @Neverthesame @blackemerald1 we can’t put fences or walls up on the porch, but my next door neighbor and I both have dog gates. She tampered with mine daily, leaving openings that my dogs could get through and bolt out into the street. I did have a guy scheduled to come on Tuesday to put in a...
  20. KwanYingirl

    Crazy neighbor moved all my porch furniture and then moved her things in

    Well, well, well. My crazy neighbor is selling her condo and moving out. She was unable to find a lawyer to prove her point that my porch is hers, so she’s moving. She has requested a meeting of the Board of which I am the Secretary. I plan on not speaking a word. I slept last night soundly.
  21. KwanYingirl

    Looking for Books

    @ladee im getting to where you ended up with your kids. My son is vicious and his sister is passive aggressive. They’re lost to me now. I have tried to teach them about PTSD but it seems they delight in triggering me. They both abuse pot and booze. I know there’s no sense even trying to have a...
  22. KwanYingirl

    Looking for Books

    Sorry folks. My work schedule was super busy and I’m just getting to my messages. Yes, as Friday notes, it’s a bloody mess and so stressful. Knowing now that I’m going to have a surveillance camera on the gate, I only need 3 acts of tampering to get a Protection Order. They’re coming Tuesday to...
  23. KwanYingirl

    Looking for Books

    I’m thinking over what you’ve all shared and I agree of it all. Pitching a plan for recovery seems daunting right now. I’m super stressed about my shitty credit score and I need to focus on getting right with that because I need to buy a car. Then she got dealt a blow, the state is taking their...
  24. KwanYingirl

    Looking for Books

    My daughter and I have had a rocky relationship since I suffered a severe chemical exposure in the late 90’s. She was only 14 at the time and I was so sick, I was on the couch for a year until I started having acupuncture. Slowly I healed, was able to go back to college and start a business. I...
  25. KwanYingirl

    Gearing up for EMDR

    Thank you for your advice. I know that grounding is important in every aspect of life and it’s something I do struggle with. Yesterday for example, I woke up in a flashback at 1:00am and never got back to sleep. So damn another sleepless night and then my mind just goes to gloom and doom. I had...
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