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    Do your parts dream?

    A true homophobe would never admit to such a dream, it would seem. However, a fully comfortable-with-everything person would not feel the need to label things the dream if they didn't come with labels in any way or qualify it in any terms. Being in between and labeling, reacting, or commentating...
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    Do your parts dream?

    I've woken up slowly, and by "I" I refer to myself as the "ANP/host" who is just the "hostess with the mostess" of the time up front, that is. I've woken up audibly hearing other parts discussing what they don't like about the body, and how they would like it solved. In this particular time I'm...
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    What does integration feel like?

    Well the opposite of integration might be when faced with a choice and losing time while two or three parts argue about how to approach it, meanwhile the deadline to make the choice has already passed so the choice was never made, but the chance to choose was missed by default, resulting in...
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    Other Seizure During EMDR

    This is a good thread because many people with PTSD or supporting someone with this and related disorders do not know that epilepsy and seizures are highly comorbid or correlated to it. This means, that once a person gets diagnosed with PTSD, they have a higher chance of also having or getting a...
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    Vigilance and My Shut-Down of Sexual Feelings

    @spinningmytires I can feel the sense of overwhelm in your writing and can relate to it greatly, although it doesn't always manifest physically for me in the same manner. Sometimes it does, but it can take many forms. Like not wanting to be touched. This has come and gone for me. In my...
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    Sleepwalking or Dissociation?

    Thank you @siniang @scout86 and @DharmaGirl
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    Vigilance and My Shut-Down of Sexual Feelings

    Loss of trust, loss of control. Fear of loss of self-control or self-trust. Very similar.
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    Vigilance and My Shut-Down of Sexual Feelings

    Depending on what works for you. I could recommend moving outside trad talk therapy to massage, movement, art, mindfulness training, yoga, breathing, medium-ship, meditation, visualization training because all of these kinds of arts train you to TRUST you own body, intuition, and primal...
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    DID Just life with DID

    @knuckles that experience you described so well, I have also lived many times. Except you seem to be more aware of the inner compassion going on than I have been able to give credit for, and I am working on that noticing that. I have been distrusting for so long due to fear. I have hidden this...
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    Last movie or tv series you watched?

    Due to the whole stuck at home thing, ran out of the usual stuff. Watching Supernatural, and making lots of jokes about to mock the silly sound effects. It's what you do when you run out of quality entertainment. Whatever works.
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    DID Accuracy of Traumatic Memory Flashbacks with DID

    I truly wish there were a DID hotline with caring folks who have worked through their DID and have training in how to help people encountering things and need someone who can help make sense of things. It is not possible to talk about being multiple to people who are looking at a single body...
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    Sleepwalking or Dissociation?

    @Friday the Dx for sleepwalking would stipulate that you didn't imbibe; but, strangely they allow for Rx meds as prescribed and don't consider that imbibing as an interference for Dx. I am not expert. Don't quote me. Just asking questions. I lost three days once, and was seen in a trance like...
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    DID Just life with DID

    This is a lot of work for me doing this on my own. Mine don't want to journal. I don't want to journal. I'm not in therapy. I commend you on this. Can you share some examples of precisely what this might look like? Does it always have to be in a journal. I know everyone with DID uses a...
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    DID Just life with DID

    @DharmaGirl Wow! Such a big question. I'm still trying to learn. I'm not in therapy yet, so I am on my own trying to figure things out. I understand there are at least two other dissociative disorders that are quite similar to DID (but are not DID because the DSM-5 includes the parameter that...
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    Pandemic realities + PTSD: when "everyone is a threat" is true...

    I see threat everywhere, sure, but mostly, I am afraid of myself. In addition to lifelong PTSD, I have DID, and I don't know what's going to happen sometimes, or what I've done or who I am, really, inside. I can't be sure I'm a "good person." I feel uncertain of people as solid or stable, and...
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    Sleepwalking or Dissociation?

    Has anyone questioned if they have sleepwalked or dissociated? Is the sleep study in adults able to accurately assess if an adult with PTSD has been prone to sleepwalking in the past? There is research to suggest that PTSD hyper-vigilance causes part of the brain to remain alert during sleep...
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    Other Been avoiding getting a proper diagnosis haha

    @bluedreamdaydream I agree with you that taking the proverbial "bull by the horns" is the way to proceed, whether or not you ultimately determine to go meds or no-meds and try alternative ways of management. Your posts resonated for me, and I wanted to say that I also have Bipolar in my...
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    DID Just life with DID

    @Wendell_R may I ask how you found your therapist and your take on therapy with DID in your experience? I'm torn on therapy for me so far. Thank you for whatever you can share here.
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    DID Just life with DID

    Something similar for me. When a "new to fronting" part fronts, it often hasn't for a LONG time and it finds looking out of the eyes around itself at the world so BEAUTIFUL. This is a surreal part of the disorder. Recently, my main person was out front, getting tired, and not liking what was...
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    News Mary Kay Letourneau dies at age 58

    So disturbing how much of our society still tolerates child abuse and sugar-coats it every which way.
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    Sufferer PTSD and cPTSd survivor looking for community

    Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry you are feeling broken at this stage. Parenting with PTSD is a handfull, for sure, as I know. Be kind to yourself. You can do it with support!
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    What to do? I want to go back to work. UPDATE

    Just a suggestion: Maybe a phased approach: set a goal of therapy as work. Once that is working for you, you can work in stages, like maybe working from home or part time and phase into full time as you and your T. assess how you are responding to the stress of work. I tend to "feel good"...
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    Issues connecting memories?

    Believing, and going back and forth in that feeling, is normal, I think, for lots of people after having memories surface. Have you (safely) been able to do any research to confirm any of the memories or hear from anyone from the past reporting similar experiences that would help you to...
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    What to do? I want to go back to work. UPDATE

    I hear you. That sucks. A long time ago, my first therapist told me that while in PTSD, the avoidance that is holding back emotions related to the trauma also is numbing the survivor to the other emotions, leading to this state of numbness they call "flat affect." Yes, you can feel emotions...
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    DID Accuracy of Traumatic Memory Flashbacks with DID

    Thanks @Ronin That was a really comprehensive response in many ways, most of all validating and essential to the point, it's okay; I'm safe. Nobody is dying. I'm far away from the individual. I do not think that person was an abuser, but then again, I guess it depends who you ask. Now, it's...
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