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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    You're right. Yet, the term good friends is subjective. When my own family structure was lacking, thankfully, I found home. Water may run thinner than blood but it spills all the same. I sincerely do my best to offer stability & respect to those who have entered my heart. As I feel everyone...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    & for what it's worth Foot, I don't know you but you have mentioned being offline & I don't know what exactly that means to you but I do appreciate you taking the time to reply to my post & I hope when you go online that it's like seeing a sunrise for the first time. Thank you :)
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    I think you're right Grief. & To be frank I know we could have messed around even tho he's gay. People would joke about getting him drunk because that would be the only way & it p*ssed me off. I love the guy, if someone did that to him I'd lose my sh*t. The sad truth is I coulda without him...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    I have Foot, they moved more than a day drive away which was why I even put myself out there. It was never out of any notions of anything romantic actually evolving. & Most of the things I did for him, I never told him. Like throwing his going away party, or being a complete tyrant & busting my...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    I'd like to think we all have. I wasn't actually in court related therapy because of behavioral issues tho. My ma, brothers and I all had to go as part of a 'safety house' thing for battered woman/their families. Unfortunately, I did make an impression. My poor mother. I can't remember what they...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    I made this thread & I don't know either
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    But it was uncanny. & I would have been concerned for serious medical reasons but it was literally only me. I remember once he called for some work reason & I answered his question & at the end I said something I have said a million times before. & Another co-worker who was there said he wasn't...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    You're probably right about it not being as long but it would sure feel like it. I'd just say, 'You're glitching again.' and wait it out. Then he'd normally leave the area I was in once he'd start moving again and then come back and finish the conversation. I'm pretty I know what set him off the...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    I actually did, give him space that is. & Usually he'd come find me and make a lewd joke. Mostly about my hard nips because I only wear bras on occasion. But yes, in those moments I agree. Something did and it s*cked. & Now I'm confused, that was in reference to what Foot said about trying to...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    I see where you're coming from. Without him directly telling me, no one else could. I believe, that getting put in uncomfortable situations can help us grow so it's not so much as wanting to be 'safe' for people. I just would like to understand more about it in general. Knowledge and...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    Truthfully, I dunno. I've never really dived into it besides a few court ordered therapist when I was kid. & I can't speak for him but I know him and his sister would be left alone a lot at a young age until their grandmother stepped in. Whose husband molested his sister (she's still married to...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    Also, it happened multiple times & it s*cked everytime.
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    No, he didn't tell me he did but I would bet about anything that's what was happening. I can't over emphasis how when I say he would shut down, he shut down. It only happened with me. Even though, he wouldn't interact with anyone when it would happen if they were around. People knew him for...
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    The last bit. He would completely shut down at times. When I say nothing, I mean it very literally. As in, his eyes would lock on me but he wouldn't answer me and would freeze. Frozen. Not a twitch of a finger, anything. And it would stretch on for minutes.
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    So, I am very confused & seek some insight

    I've been through some traumatic experiences that left their marks & am still very much so working on myself yet my confusion comes from another's actions. It's a pretty long story but I caused them to dissociate. At first I didn't know what was happening to them until I did it myself &...
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