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    Sexual Assault I have really disturbing unwanted thoughts about abuse and CSA

    Hi, I was assaulted as a child and had a strong fear of just looking at children until 20 as I was afraid I'd be attracted to them (and that someone would hurt me again), even though it made no sense. I first stopped being around children for like a year by going to a new place, not next to a...
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    nightmares about people who didn't assault me

    It's interesting what our brains can do, even though I wish there wasn't a reason for us to have do head gymnastics to avoid anymore hurt after trauma. I hope your nightmares can get better for you over time, they aren't at all pleasant to experience.
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    nightmares about people who didn't assault me

    One thing I've been curious about for a while is that I have more nightmares about my parents and step parent than I do about the person who actually sexually assaulted me. I might've had 1 or 2 about the actual person who hurt me, for comparison. Like, I was relieved when I had a nightmare only...
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    Undiagnosed Hi, I hope to feel less alone with sexual trauma

    It's the term 'abuse' I get stuck on. It feels like an overstatement to me but idk, I'm not an expert in anything. Yeah, I wish my mum recognised how desperate I was to tell her something for once. I completely hated her at the time, she used to degrade me and invade my privacy constantly (I...
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    Undiagnosed Hi, I hope to feel less alone with sexual trauma

    I've seen a lot of ppl online talking about EMDR but I don't really know how much of anything works or how to get there tbh. There's also the possible differences between countries. Ig I will be making notes to find out any of my options as I am already planning to ask how to check if the person...
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    Undiagnosed Hi, I hope to feel less alone with sexual trauma

    Hi, I'll go by Fox or Rye, doesn't matter much. When I was a teen, I was sexually harassed by my younger cousin, which I told my mum about. She told me it was nothing. He sexually assaulted me over the holidays. This only happened once, technically, since I think everything else goes under...
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