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    Feeling aggravated

    It does help to know it's ok to feel like this. I guess I'm angry somewhat that it's happening at all you know. And it being small that I shouldn't make a big deal of it. But its still unsettling. And everyone saying its going to fine. Its nothing. Thats what they said when I had to go for the...
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    Feeling aggravated

    I don't know what is going on. I had to have a biopsy on my breast this morning. Kind of feel like it was pointless. It was about pea sized and they had trouble finding it. They just numbed the area so no anesthesia but for some reason I'm feeling kind of aggravated/angry. I won't know results...
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    Some kind of flashback maybe?

    Thanks
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    Some kind of flashback maybe?

    @joeylittle I'm sorry I didn't respond sooner. I guess my notifications email went to spam. Talking with my T it was probably the emotional flashback. The feelings of the secone was so overwhelming. I couldn't separate from past to current. The first one I just felt like I was being pulled back...
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    Some kind of flashback maybe?

    I'm sorry I was in a weird place yesterday. @LittleBigFoot the hrt isn't so much for flashbacks but from what I understand the hormone fluctuations during menopause can cause someone to have more flashbacks. So they try to regulate the hormone fluctuations with the hrt or birth control. I'm...
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    Some kind of flashback maybe?

    Yes I'm seeing a therapist she just went on vacation. Well it felt like an emotional flashback. I saw my ex try to hang himself. I was groomed from the time I was 18 to make this one person not get angry afraid something would happen. So yes, I read a little today after I stopped crying and I...
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    Some kind of flashback maybe?

    So no replies. I guess I dumped to much. maybe I didn't even have a whatever it was.
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    Some kind of flashback maybe?

    Well, I haven't been on here much, but today something happened that I'm not sure what it was for sure. First off I've been married to my 2nd husband for 15 years. It's been mostly great. My first and my kids' father was the emotionally abusive of me and sexually abused my daughter. (I...
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    Other today and my son and triggered

    Well my son, who is 19 almost 20, has been in school for AMT. He is also been on prozac, busiprone and trazodone. His bio-father is bi-polar. I used to always try to fix his father, when he would quit taking his meds and get his meds refilled, getting him into the therapist, the psychiatrist...
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    Crying and having hard time stopping.

    Thank you for that. I was just sitting here worried people would judge me after I said all that. My ex was bi-polar and angry a lot. I can see he was manipulative now. I met him when I was 18 in 1984 and the abuse came out in 2003. I do try to tell myself I'm not to blame, but it's hard. I...
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    Crying and having hard time stopping.

    I feel so guilty for what I feel like is helping my ex (kids' father) rape my daughter. Not intentionally, but if would be angry, I would say "why don't you go out and talk to your dad" when he was out in the shed or something. Cause they seemed to get along and in reality he raped her. How...
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    Memory flashes

    I do drink around 67 ounces a day. And I'm sorry my post was so weird I think. I did talk to my therapist this morning and a lot probably can be due to the hormones. I am through most of menopause. But I was having some major flashbacks that weren't easy to handle so they put me on the...
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    Memory flashes

    I went for my mile walk listening to music and all of a sudden I started having memories flash in my mind. Not all bad but not all good either. Remembering my kids grandma on their dads side. All the guys I have been with and not been with. I don't understand why this is happening. I started...
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    Dom Violence random thoughts

    I noticed people have viewed this post but no replies. I'm probably just a crazy person.
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    Other What reasons were you given not to tell?

    I wish I could feel what you feel. I try to pray forgiveness, but it doesn't seem to happen. :(
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    Dom Violence random thoughts

    I have so much on my mind lately, I don't know where to turn or what to do. I just want to get it out of my head and down somewhere. I'm not sure this is the right place for this thread. I just need to ramble a bit. My ex-husband/abuser is getting out of prison on the 18th or 19th of this...
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    Hurt so bad & depressed. Don't know what to do?

    @whiteraven thanks for responding. Yes, I have been diagnosed with PTSD and I'm not sure what else. I was first diagnosed with depression in 2001 after my son was born and it was ppd then. I've been trying to decide on a therapist since my insurance changed in January. I hadn't seen my previous...
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    Hurt so bad & depressed. Don't know what to do?

    I don't know what to do. I feel kind of down &/or blah. I was told by my primary dr. that my labs came back that I am post menopausal. That doesn't bother me other than wonder if it's causing some of my problems. I quit taking topamax because it didn't seem to help my mood, but also helps...
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    Frustrated dont know what to do

    @bellbird flashbacks do suck. I am having a tough time shaking the thought of it. I haven't had any quite a while I guess because of medication and never this strong. And was just a vision of a bedroom where I lived no one in there just a room. I think emdr would be good. I never heard of the...
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    Frustrated dont know what to do

    I am a survivor of many years of mental abuse of a man I lived with/father of my 3 children, since I was 18. He went to jail in 2004, for sexually abusing my 2 daughters. Biologically they are his children too, but i say they are mine, because he doesn't deserve them. I had a flashback last...
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    Abilify and feeling sleepy

    @joeylittle thank you, I appreciate it. I don't say much, but I get on here and check out things some. You've always been helpful and informative. I just get so tired of this battle. Been on medication 18 years and that's probably not long compared to some, but I want to "get well" or as...
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    Abilify and feeling sleepy

    @joeylittle She had told me if I get sleepy to take it at night, which I am now. But I'm noticing I'm more short-tempered with this. Have you had experience with this medication or has anyone else? I know on some meds they say to go up it helps. She told me at 8 days take 1/2 of .5 and then...
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    Abilify and feeling sleepy

    The psych doc just added Abilify to my Effexor and I took it after I picked it up at 11 and I'm getting really sleepy now at 1:30 pm. Is that normal. It says it can, and the doc said maybe but at a low dose she didn't think it would. When I google it everyone talks about how it kept them up...
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    Parenting

    Wow, I haven't been on this site as much as I probably should have been seeing all these posts. I have an almost 6 year old granddaughter that we just got guardianship of who is wanting attention so badly. She never got a lot form her mom, but I have a hard time with her just hugging on me...
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    What Drugs Are You Taking For Depression ?

    I'm on effexor and topamax and busiprone. I mainly take it to help me sleep. Trying to get p doc to prescribe something else to add to effexor. No energy to do much and when I do have a bit of excess anxiety, I take 10 mg. of busiprone and I really struggle to do anything..it's like blah. I...
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