Your feelings seem so similar to mine. I've been isolating more and more over the last few years. The insecurities drive me crazy and I stay alone so I don't have to experience feeling worthless or stupid or whatever. I know I'm projecting but it's hard to convince myself of the truth.
It's...
I feel like you're telling my story too. The anorexia is what I will die from eventually. All the rest of it is a nightmare but the anorexia is always in the background, slowly depriving me of the strength to continue. I have constant muscle pain and don't sleep well. Whenever I'm struggling...
I love to take walks when I'm down and be grateful for nature. It's real and my terrible cptsd feelings are based on fiction. It makes me feel like part of something beautiful.
I had 2 friends commit suicide within 2 weeks of each other. It was in 2013 and it caused a total breakdown that I'm just now crawling out of. There was substance abuse to the point that I went to rehab twice, 3 close calls with suicide attempts and now I still have cptsd so badly that I can't...
It's so comforting to know that others understand you. I feel like I push friends and family away and hurt their feelings. They somehow believe that if they loved them enough I wouldn't be afraid of gatherings. I'm ok one on one but can't do holidays or anything with lots of people. I also have...
I've only been on this site for a week and I just want to say how much help I'm finding. I thought I was alone in my extreme symptoms. That I was exaggerating, being overdramatic. That's how other people treat me too. Hearing your stories validates my problem. It's a nightmare and I kept...
I'm so sorry, it sounds like you're going through a nightmare. I trigger myself just thinking about trusting again. I mean if I try and pressure myself into socializing or starting relationships it stresses me and I freak out. I'm so lonely too. I used to love being with lots of people. I had...
I got cptsd from my church. Seems stupid but I trusted so much that I didn't even recognize it as abuse at the time, so denied the ptsd for 7 miserable years. I'm in therapy and making progress but I still feel so much pain and anxiety. I used to be super social and genuinely loved people but...