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as the title says, goodbye everyone! i've been diagnosed with ptsd a year ago but it has since then been rediagnosed as schyzotypal personality disorder. with that out of the way, i want to say thank to everyone on this forum that beared with me on the few threads i made. even tho i havent...

i think it is due time i update this thread. i got myself a job, not the best but i guess it's good enough for now. Yet, i think i should've not been hired. almost as if i deprived someone more deserving of it. moreover this guilt is still on me. the last few months have been a rollercoaster...

I adore coffee and kaso tea ! I usually buy whole beans either in the supermarket or in the local bar. Here In Italy it's very common for even small village bars to have their own coffee beans mixtures to sell. As for my tar I have found a local specialty shop with lots of good choices. Usually...

Sometimes I'd rather read and do nothing but let me rephrase . Giving structure to my life is something that I obsessively think about. Rather than having unplanned events happening I'd rather narrow down the things I do just to have a structure for the day.

Giving structure to my week or even months is something I find myself doing everytime. I'd rather do nothing but read than not to have a planned week. Is this kind of behaviour common with PTSD ?

It might not be but can't help thinking I'm to blame for thinking to get away from my family with whom I still live for now. I have an industrial chemistry diploma a'd I wish to workssomewhere where I can do chemistry doesn't matter the branch. I'm gonna pay for my uni studies while working...

Freedom from my past, that's what It means to me for now. I want a way out of my family, of where I lived. I'm selfish for saying so but I want to be on my own whether it is in a house or six feets under. In 1-5 years, I hope to be working somewhere and having a stable financial situation out of...

I've ended up believing that I might not even deserve a life out of my familiar contest. Growing up I always felt shamed, always got shouted at for little things to the point I feel as if I'm just an automaton incapable of thinking and acting for himself. Acting for myself would just cause me...

The espresso today is a bit better

For now my support group consists of my therapist grandparents ( tho tho they're old and can't grasp the idea of PTSD very well but they have been my only "safe space" for years and still are ) three friends, one of which also has PTSD so that's a real help with discussing this whole ordeal. As...

Hi, thanks for welcoming me ! I am slowly growing fond of this thread as it's making me more aware of what PTSD actually entails. This last week was a turmoil due to the diagnosis. I've been 22 to for a month now, don't mind sharing my age here 乁| ･ 〰 ･ |ㄏ Edit: indeed there's a stigma in...

as the title says, i costantly feel guilt over what happened. on top of that i'm always told that i do this for attention, get dismissed as someone uncapable of living on his own and that always had to be taken care of. Growing up, i was subjected to costant punishments and "correctional"...

since the diagnosis arrived i have yet to see my general pratictioner. it has been only a week or so that my ptsd diagnosis was made official. I would have never guessed that ptsd can cause probllems with the thyroid, thanks for the heads up! thanks you very much for the advice! i've done some...

Oh, sorry for posting in a wrong forum and thanks for the heads up! Finally I can try to categorize and explain the things that have been happening to me and this forum has been a real help so far. I should be starting a cognitive reinforcement and re training company soon with my therapist...

Hi everyone, how are you all doing ? So... Brain fogging or whatever it's called now, I feel constantly surrounded by it. I doze off while eating and start hearing everything feebly, get triggered by even the slightest bit of criticism, but still can't properly articulate. Speaking with my...

Suicide, work or lach thereof, the taste of my espresso too ( it ain't good)

Yes I do have a therapist sort of two actually. I was lucky enough to get into a free psychological therapy program some years ago. Started for suspect manic depression if I remember and then ended up with PTSD . They've both been really helping with processing the whys of this and trying to...

i absolutely hate not having evry sngle informations i can get. if people refuse to give them i often end up thinking they're planning to screw me. sadly i've also received th etiquette of overthinker ina negative way, everytime i end up talking about plans for the future o talking in general...

hi everyone. it feels kinda awkward to write in a forum, never thought i'd do that. Nonetheless hi to everyone ! I now know that i have ptsd, got the report just two days ago. at first it felt like a charm "i finally know what's wrong with me!" i said. but the eveything sinked in... Can't no...